CoNfRoNtAtIoN wItH mBbS

I am a Graduate :))

2011-11-11T02:08:00.001+05:30

Assalam alaykum

:) Long time (once again :P)

Sooooo…. A lott has happened over the past few weeks.

This post is entirely dedicated to one of them :)

I graduated :) :) :)

29th October, 2011 was the Graduation Day of my batch- 90th Batch (Batch 2005) of Govt. T.D.Medical College, Alleppey. Kerala

I really don’t think I’d be able to write much other than smileys…

This was the same “Convocation” bout which I’d written a lengthy post saying that I WOULDN’T be attending it at all….

Lol!!!

But, finally…. Couldn’t keep myself away from it. Though, I didn’t call my family for the ceremony, I attended and invited Ibrahim Uncle and his family for the ceremony. I stayed in their house at Alleppey for around 1 and a half months during HScy and even before that I used to visit them regularly. Actually during my first year (when I was soooo on love with MBBS)… my parents had decided to move to Kerala for my studies and we had rented a house “Manimandiram” which was just opposite “Sareena Manzil”- Rahiya aunty and Ibrahim uncle’s house.. that is how we got to know them and they had been grt help to me during my entire stay.

Newaz..

So, our Grad Day began with the ususal ceremonies…. Followed by a very grand but also very confusing dinner (from which I wanted to run away coz I was missing my own family so bad..).. then a most irritating photo session…

And then we happily went to attend the culturals….. Balabhaskar (who is a violinist) played some very beautiful music…. And there were lots of fantastic performances by our batchmates as well as juniors…..

The entire thing ended by around 2.30 am… while the guys began their “DJ” dance… :P

I also know that the way I’ve written it…. It sounds like the yuckest thing in the world and 5 yrs from now when (if) I’ll read this post of mine, I’ll curse myself like hell .. but, khair….am more worried over whether or not I’d be able to post it coz Internet is just too too slow over here….

Did you ask “Here” where???….

Here baba….

Port Blair :)

Am back home.. :)

Kerala is over for me…. Or at least ‘on hold’ for sometime:)

coz there’s no place like Kerala ….

….

…

Except the Andaman & Nicobar Islands----which are even better :)

But, more on that later…

For now…. If you are on FB.. you can see the entire Album of my Grad pics here- My FB Album

Tc all….

Will soon catch up with you all :*

Love :)

The Gypsy Doctors.

2011-09-29T16:59:00.000+05:30

Not a very apt title, but ‘gypsy’ was the first word that came to my mind when I thought of ‘Radiologists’- the super rich guys who read the ultrasound scans, CT scans and other such incomprehensible radiological images.

I’m having my RD (Radio Diagnosis) posting now (1 week down, 1 more to go) and trust me, there’s hardly anything that I’m able to make out from the images displayed on the screen.

Oh yes! The liver looks like a liver! And the urinary bladder can be seen coz of the urine! But that’s to it!!! And even these two can be identified (by me) coz of the strategic placement of the probe on the exact anatomical surface where these organs are situated in the body.

Otherwise….my… my… my…

It feels like looking into an ocean and trying to make out the shape of the waves and estimating their heights and assigning them names…

Phewww!!!

But, the radiologists.. they smoothly glide the probe and look at the ridiculous screen and go on blabbering their findings-

Right kidney’ parenchyma thinned out….. pelvis measuring blah blah blah… ureter dilated blah blah blah……

It reminds me of those stories and movies where gypsies and tantriks dressed up in heavy (and funky) jewellery sit scrying at crystal balls and mirrors and water filled vessels….

And a little abracadabra

And lo !!! your past, present, future are right before their eyes!!!

But, who, other than the blessed-with-superhero-vision gypsies and tantriks, has ever seen anything in a crystal ball or a magic mirror???

The last time a ‘customer’ had seen anything in a medium of ‘vision’ was when the Princess Alisha had gone gaga over a steaming Made-in-India-Milind-Soman’s view in an equally steaming pot of magical water….

That was in 1995…..BACKKKKK INNN THEEE DAYSSSS………… ;P

P.S- watch the Made in India music video on you tube.. :) Milind looks sooooo young.....:) *wow* :)

Check List

2011-09-25T02:02:00.000+05:30

Seriously, is it 1 am? God!! It feels like 4 in the evening….. no, not the sky… I ain’t blind.. I mean it just feels pretty evening-ish.

So, well…. Today was an OK day, Alhamdulillah. I met Nisha Ma’am and we sorted out the extension thing. I’ve got 8 days to do (as against the 18 days that I’d counted- prepare for the worst, they say ;p) and the best part is that I do not have to do my 3 Chettikadu days at Chettikadu. :) which is like super cool!!! There’s no Airtel network at RHTC, Chettikadu….. so…. You know wat I mean!

I seriously detested that posting. It was the worst posting of my HScy. Seriously!

Khair! Toh my extension thing is done, Alhamdulillah and I hope the remaining days go smooth and I don’t get myself into any more extensions….

The next few things that remain are my completion, the certificates, the shifting and the tickets.

I need to :-

1. Take photocopy of the completion form for Amu, Aish and myself.
2. Write the log book, which is a bloody pain in the ass.
3. Get the completions and hope that nobody gets wild at the sight of my lipcolour or my nose-ring or just me as a whole and grant me extension..(yeah!!! That’s the only thing in my mind right now- EXTENSION..you could ask me anything in the world.. I’d successfully bring the answer down to EXTENSION.)
4. Find out from some good soul, exactly wat am I supposed to do AFTER I get the completion from all the departments.
5. Plus, CAN I get the certificates (school mark lists, islander certificate, and the blahs) now? Or will it be mailed along with the registration? If I CAN get it now, I need to take it now…
6. Shift my things from Neerkunnam to Punnapra. And decide on the things that I will carry WITH me and the things that I will cargo home.
7. Buy luggage pieces.
8. Contact TCI Kochi regarding the whole freight business. How and when can they do it….
9. Depending on ALLLLLLLLLL this, book my tickets.
10. Fly home :) :) :)

And of course I have to buy a few things for everybody at home :)
and I also have to be mentally, emotionally, physically and most importantly, financially prepared for the “Extra-Baggage Charges”. :_(

I am such a miser :_( I know!!!
You know my family is a Sheikh family (not the Arab Sheikhs---we are the Indo-Pak Sheikhs)….. and Sheikhs are widely known to be misers…. Not something to be proud of.. but, well… that’s the way it is…
I guess the ‘miser gene’ skipped expression for 2-3 generations and finally expressed in me!! Blah!

Anyways… the downside of today was that I SCRRRREEEAAAMMMEEEDDD at Abbu :_( :_(

I don’t know why I do that. I do it all the time. I scream at mummy too, but since I talk to mummy Q6H, it’s ok. But, Abbu must feel really bad about me behaving this way on the few occasions that I speak to him.
I did call them back and apologize, but it really doesn’t make up, I know.
Someday, I’ll get it all back.
Karma is a bloody bitch. She’ll get me.
Is karma a she??? Whatever!

And I was sad and happy and all that….
And that’s it.
Gud nite. :)

The Convocation

2011-09-23T23:55:00.000+05:30

Certain days are soooo sad, you know. So sad matlab ufffff wala so sad.
I guess, am feeling so troubled just coz am trying so bad to go home at the earliest. I am seriously not the struggling types… I need to relax and just let things be… I mean possibly cant make me work for more than 18 days. I just hope lets me start from 20th itself…. And I also hope lets me do it in ambalapuzha instead of chettikadu. There is no airtel network there…. But agar doesn’t agree toh I wudnt have an option.

I am also pretty worried over my Triage posting. We are three Housies and that means we would have cycles of 24 hrs duty and 12 hours off.. which, I think, will be really hectic. And that is another reason why am so worked up… coz that is the time when I would really need time … for packing shacking and all that and all that… but, Newaz….. the only good part is that at the end, it will end.

Am also sad coz I will not be participating in the Convocation. I aint inviting my parents. And I have no wish to be there alone. I had thought of calling Azhar over. But, we both are not worth each other. So, that leaves me with two options-
1. Not attending the convo and feeling sad coz I wasn’t with my batch which, anyways, will forget me in a matter of days (i.e., if they remember me now).
2. Attending the convo all alone and looking at everybody with their families and feeling sad.

I think I should go for option 1.

I do realize that I am lucky that I HAVE a family. There might be so many in this world who don’t have a family at all. There are orphans doing graduation and for their convo they might invite their uncles and aunties, which is cool in itself, but still, somewhere deep in their hearts, they might, just MIGHT, wish their parents were with them. My mummy was an orphan. She had a big family and stuff, but, still.. she was an orphan…. If she had parents, I don’t think they would have got her married to someone from a jungle,…..from Calcutta to Port Blair.
I digress.
So, I mean ki I am doing all this naatak just coz I have someone to call Mummy and someone to call Abbu.
Maybe, I don’t know.
They are ready to come, btw. But I really don’t think it is worth it. I mean if we keep a minimum of RS. 10,000 from Port Blair to Alleppey, it makes Rs. 40,000 for my parents’ to and fro tickets plus the stay and food. Let’s add another Rs. 10,000 to it.

I really do not think that we should be spending 50 grands to get my old parents to travel (something they never do) only to hear Malayalam speeches and sit like statues throughout the function, coz they don’t speak Malayalam and will not be able to converse with others’ parents, and eat do dana from the grand (hopefully) dinner and retire to the hotel room coz by then the Y chromosomes will have started their talli dance.
To be noted here is that I will have to take leave if my parents come over and that would only mean more days with God’s countrymen, something am not really looking forward to. Then there can come the twist in the tale where my parents, instead of returning home like sane-headed people, can get all senti bout me having to do all the shifting thing alone and decide to stay back in the Country that God is accused to belong to, and that would mean me going and staying with them in the hotel room in the evenings… something that will only hamper the packing and shifting process. Not to mention, the expenses of staying in hotels. And I also don’t know what on earth would they do the whole day.
The other thing, of course, is that they can happily return home the next day. That would mean 50 grands for 2 days. :) :) wow!! I wish I was that rich.
But I am not :x :x :x :x

So the people who are telling me to spend such a lot of money to “experience the joy of getting the DEGREE (without even completing the course!!!!) in front of my parents” ….. when all they have to do is spend a few hundred rupees for filling their vandis’ tanks with petrol and maybe a little more to buy Moov for local application on the arms of their fathers/brothers/whoever after the long-drive-ache … should….. rather SHUT UP and help their mothers decide which saree to wear for their “Once in a lifetime” moment.
I am sad enough for not attending the convo… don’t make me sadder.
I also know that I spend a lot otherwise, but sorry to say that I don’t spend money to buy Malayalam CDs and I don’t spend money to go to, say Mata Amrita’s sermons…… I spend money over things that I like…. And the whole idea of making my family feel lonely is NOT SOMETHING I LIKE.

The only thing that can make me go the convo is my “Antar-atma” (since I am a Sonia fan, I always listen to my antar-atma) that wants to take the Oath with my batchmates.
Newaz.... my life is ruled by impulse, maybe the sudden urge of wearing the kala topi and kala coat may make me jump into the convo.. never know!! am a Sag :P
Oh!!! Am I desp!!!
I was sad sadder saddest.. and wasn’t going for the convo video shoot either…. But fir my “Antar-atma” took over and I went and naatakofied and happily returned with 2 papers full of non-sense that I wrote during the ‘exam scene shoot’. :p

Another thing that I ain’t likin is that some part of the stuff I wrote for the batch-slambook was in Hindi, which didn’t understand and I had told him to ask me before publishing, not once but many times, but he goes on saying that he will.. surely towards the end, he wudn’t be able to and that is really irritating coz I have been telling him for so long. I finally told him to skip me. But uske liye bhi woh raazi nahi.
Toh khair.
This is it.
Lots of blahs!!!
And the next blah would be the blah I wrote in those two sheets of paper :)

Blahing out.

On ENT, CSOM and Cerebellar abscess and my 50th Post :)

2011-09-15T01:53:00.001+05:30

my 50th post :)

Having my ENT posting right now. Trying my level best to kill my anger and be good to patients…I am going thru a “gr8” self reformation phase of my life *cough*cough*rolling eyes* :P
And so am trying to be good to the super irritating patients and bystanders..
Let’s see how far am able to take it.
Today was ENT 1 ‘s OP but our sir made me sit in the OP for sometime and I advised CT Head for two patients….
Now, I don’t know how indicated were CTs in these two cases…but, I wanted to be on the safer side.
We recently had a case where a little girl of 10 or 11 came with ear pain and was found to have a 3-4 years history of rhinitis and CSOM…. She had been treated with antibiotics each time… but still…the infection spread from the ear to the mastoid and from there to the cerebellum and the child actually had a cerebellar abscess !! the abscess was drained at the trauma theatre and on Thiruvonam I was withdrawing her blood for some investigation and she was crying out that ‘You have drained allllllll my blood’
Her parents and I couldn’t help but laugh at that :P
she was admitted in our ward. She’s been discharged now.. :)

khair.. toh this case has made me pretty scared about CSOMs…. One of the two cases to whom I advised CT had a similar history with mastoid tenderness++…..
the other one presented with headache, might be migraine… have written symptomatic management for migraine and told that she might need to take a CT if the headache doesn’t subside.
Khair…. Toh hopefully, we never miss any spread of infections from CSOMs ever again :(

Allah hafiz

Ophthalm posting ....

2011-08-21T11:22:00.000+05:30

Ophthalm posting started yesterday.. am a single HS in Eye 2.
Akhil and Amuda are in Eye 1.
Got my first Ophthalm casualty duty today…. It’s a Sunday…so it’s goin to be pretty busy…
I don’t even remember the anatomy of the eye…blah!!!
I think I’ll take my Chaurasia with me, so that I can brush up the Eye, just in case I get time.
Hoping that the day isn’t busy… am fasting and nauseating….
“Roza + Nausea + Casualty duty” doesn’t sound a very pleasing prospective.
Sigh!

Discharge Cards

2011-06-24T02:23:00.000+05:30

Assalam

You know what discharge cards are, don’t you?

Well… for those who do not know, discharge cards are like a short summary of your case, as a patient in the hospital.

When you get admitted into the hospital, you get a case sheet in which your history and progress is recorded.

But, this case sheet isn’t handed over to you at the time of discharge..instead, a short summary of the entire case sheet is written down on a ‘discharge card’ and handed over to you and you are supposed to preserve it well for any future use.

Ok.

Now, sometimes.. while writing discharge cards…. I get this strong urge to write my own comments… of course, I don’t actually do that. But, still…. I FEEL like commenting on certain things…

Misaal ke taur pe..

A few days back, we had posted a case to be an elective CS (our OTs are on Thursdays)…. The lady had some cardiac ds. and had had a previous CS….

On Wednesday (our Admission day), as we were finishing our work towards the evening… having written all pre-Op orders and consent and stuff, this lady developed pains and was immediately shifted to the labour room….

There she was posted for an Emergency CS….

But, well… she got contractions sufficient enuf and had a normal vaginal delivery…

VBAC (Vaginal Birth After C-section)

And we were soooooo happy :)

I mean, undergoin a surgery has so many complications plus the post operative pain… my God!

After a normal delivery, a lady is fit and fine in no time…

So, having a VBAC after being posted for CS is something really lucky….

And so while writing the Discharge Card…. As I wrote “VBAC” I almost added my typical “Jhinga la la meow” and made my happy smiley “ :)” …..

You know, coz I am Arya… I’m soooooooooo expressive :p

Lol..

Newaz……

I also remember writing a Discharge card where the second trimester history was something like-

T2- PIH detected -4th month

On Endopa BD since then.

UTI – 4th month, admitted for 5 days, took treatment and was asymptomatic at discharge.

GDM detected- 5th month. On Plain Insulin since then.

Usg done- 5th month- Low lying placenta (*blah*blah*blah*)

Bleeding PV – 5th month, 1 day. Admitted in LR. Symptomatic management given. No further bleeding episodes.

“OTHERWISE T2 UNEVENTFUL”

And after writing this last line I seriously wanted to write something like

“yeah!!! We need more events to make it eventful *rolling eyes*!!!”

Wel…

Like I told..

I’m Arya… I’m sooooooo expressive.

Allah hafiz

To Kill A Child. . .

2011-06-19T07:17:00.002+05:30

Assalam

Well, so this post is being written in an utter exasperation that has grown over the past 1 month. Today is the last day of our 2 months O&G (Obstetrics & Gynaecology) posting, including Labour Room, Wards and 3 days of FP(Family Planning (today, yesterday and the day before)).

While in the wards I came across ladies who were there for MTP (Medical Termination of Pregnancy) and sterilization (i.e. a tiny part of both the fallopian tubes are cut so that the lady doesn’t conceive again)and I always wondered why didn’t they simply get sterilized after their last child birth….

And if they didn’t want a baby, why not opt for contraception than actually conceiving a child and then killing it?????

Well…. My bewilderment was doubled during the last three days when ladies…absolutely fine ladies… come for MTP to the FP clinic with some lame reason like

“The previous child is too young”

“There is no one to look after the child at home”

“I am not keeping well” ………………

Alrite, reasons good enuf, maybe… but they turn lame when they are not backed by an “ATTEMPT TO PREVENT PREGNANCY” by “CONTRACEPTION”….

Contra-ception -- > Opposing Conception

There are myriad methods of contraception available ranging from permanent methods of Sterilization for both male and female to something as simple as the OCP (Oral Contraceptive Pill) and Condom.

While some people might be scared of sterilization, I don’t see why should they be opposed to other methods when, after ALLLLLLLLLLLLLL , they DO NOT WANT A BABY.

I am not writing this post opposing ‘abortions’, in general…that is not the debate here.

I am opposing the treatment of MTP as a joke.

MTP, when done for medical reasons, as when the child has been detected to have some anomaly or the mother is found to have some serious disease; or for social reasons, as when a child is conceived out of rape; or a child conceived due to failure of some contraceptive method (conceiving INSPITE of using a Copper-T or OCPs) is acceptable.

Even in cases when a lady conceives during lactational amenorrhoea, I wouldn’t say MTP is wrong.

But, otherwise, when you were absolutely fit mentally and physically… and you WERE NOT DESIROUS OF HAVING A CHILD,

WHY ON EARTH DIDN’T YOU USE SOME CONTRACEPTIVE METHOD???????

We have seen in the wards, that when you counsel a lady regarding the use of a Copper-T (which is hormone secreting intra-uterine device), they go all NOOO NOOOO as if it is something very dangerous and very immoral….

There are some other ladies who refuse sterilization coz ..well… the HUSBANDS… haven’t agreed, again, maybe coz they feel it’s immoral and dangerous.

These same ladies go and get pregnant and later come with a request for MTP…… as if THIS is something very safe and moral.

A sudden bout of bleeding can never be safe my darlings….

And wat am I to say about the ‘Morality’ of KILLING A CHILD…………..

Some women, maybe, feel that pregnancy is just a temporary cessation of her periods and what she loses by MTP is just her ‘period blood’…. They don’t realize that this is as much her child as any child she has had or may have in future. This is a child that is lost… a child that is KILLED .. it is not just a re-commencement of her menstruation….

We also come across illegal pregnancies… before marriage or out of marriage…..again, I do not understand WHY cant these girls ‘prevent’ such pregnancies. I mean we even have Morning After Pills…. Don’t they watch television?????

There is one case which I saw during my Labour Room which I shall never forget.

An around 40 yr old lady came to the LR with Labour Pains… and not the onset of Labour Pains… but it was like she will deliver in no time. The Fetal Heart couldn’t be localized and an IUD (Intra-Uterine Death) was confirmed. A C-Section was done and a swollen, infected Huge Dead Fetus was removed.

This lady’s husband passed away many yrs ago… she works as a maid… conceived illegally….never told anyone bout the conception….ppl ignored the growing abdomen coz she was as such fat…. She didn’t go for ante natal check ups… nothing… must have.. MUST HAVE… felt the foetal movements which she ignored… and turned up as an in labour IUD.

Why??? Tell me, why???

Do you realize that there are couples in this world who can sell their all just to have a child?

There are young girls who have undergone hysterectomies for unavoidable reasons and can never have a child?

Do you realize that infertility has increased so much more in our times???

If you realize all this, do not take your ‘fertility’ for granted.

Do not conceive a child that you are not desirous of.

CHOOSE CONTRACEPTION OVER MURDER.

Please.

Allah hafiz

The Park in the Hospital :p

2010-01-10T15:49:00.002+05:30

Assalam

I am posted in Paediatrics now and trust me, while studies is something I hate, having little children playing around you is a really sweet sight. Surely, some o fthem are too sick to play and that hurts equally, but on the whole the entire ‘feel’ of the Paediatriatrics’ wards is different.

For one, the smaller kids, those around 1-5 years, do not really understand that they are ‘patients’. They haven’t yet attained the age of realizing the ‘role play’ of a patient. With absolutely no idea of how a patient is expected to behave, these kids run around all over the place with only a small patch of white plaster covering the cannula on their left wrists, as an indication that they are ACTUALLY… PATIENTS.

Another beautiful aspect of the wards is that we get to see ‘humans-the social animal’ in their unpolluted forms. In any other Department, the patients are generally gloomy and grumpy… you’d hardly find two ‘patients’ chattering like friends….whereas in Paeds, even if sick, you see genuine smiles and genuine laughter… so rare to find, especially in a place where people who laugh loudly are not really appreciated.. *ahem*ahem*

And lastly we shudn forget the families of these tiny tots…

Most of these children have siblings of around the same age… and when they visit the wards, it kind of appears like a huge theme park… the theme being ‘medicines’…well…

And also the mummys…:P

These mummys are just the right age in which to chatter (not that females of other ages don’t chatter….i mean that in a hospital, patients are usually in the older age group and they are more silent than their younger counterparts) they are neither sick, nor working… so while the kids from nearby beds are playing… the mummy too get together and go on wid their gupshup.

In the not serious cases, it really looks like a park.

Of course, we also see the darker sides to this…

Little children with congenital anomalies, mental retardation, developmental delay…but THAT is a part of this profession, in general.

For others, illness is a visitor once in a while; for doctors, illness is a companion for lifetime.

Truly, children are little angels minus the halo, minus the wings…. :) :) :)

Allah hafiz

Sex in the City...

2009-12-02T02:50:00.000+05:30

Assalam
Twas World Aids’ Day yesterday….and this reminded me of a long forgotten topic for my blog….
This had hit me wen I was in Medicine (I’m done wid Surgery now…. *procrastination* huh!)….
Aids- we all know enuf and more bout it…..
Though there are many equally and even more distressing medical conditions, AIDS gets a special mention coz of the social stigma associated with it, in it being a sexually transmitted disease.

A lot has been said and done in making people realize that AIDS cannot be transmitted by mere touching or by droplets, yet there’s always an air of avoidance around people who are HIV +ve….. the Medical staff, in my college at least, doesn’t refuse treatment to the HIV+ves, but, yes, due to the extra precaution needed in dealing wid these patients (as also in HepB +ve cases), the patients prolly do feel like an outcast among the other patients….
But the purpose of this blogpost is not to reiterate the various psychological effects of AIDS….
Wat I want to speak bout is the FAMILY of the affected…
And being even more specific, the SPOUSE of the person concerned…..

Going by the trends in our hospital, (irrespective of world trends) malees seem to be affected with HIV more than women… at least…. Of the detected cases, males have been more than women.
And the most common mode of transmission suspected, and found is by Sexual Contact.

It’s so well established that our teachers have told us to suspect HIV infection as a prime cause if a driver/ hotel worker presents with symptoms similar to that of AIDS.
Same goes for a person working outside Kerala.
The logic is that these people are more prone to the exposure to the virus, prolly by intercourse with sex workers, since they are far from their own homes and women.
Prolly the stress of their work combined with the basic human needs leads them to relieve their stress thru illicit sexual acts and in turn leading them to their deathbed.

Even wen we come across women (or hear bout some patient’s case history) with the disease, it’s usually contracted from her husband. I, personally, have seen only one woman who HERSELF was into many sexual relations, was working as a laborer outside Kerala and had been infected with the virus. She was a widow in her late thirtys.

So, wat I mean is….most cases of HIV I have heard of are MEN with illicit sexual contacts.
For the patient himself, it’s definitely a pain. I don’t deny that.
Who doesn’t sin?
And don’t we know that a lot of boys have many ‘girlfriends’ (so to call) and have sex with each of them?
[on second thots, theabove statement appears mild.. prolly coz I am in Alpy.. had I been in some other “City”, I wud have had to use stronger words]
But, these people, our HIV+ves are unlucky enuf to fall to the wrong people at the wrong time.
So, surely… I wont say that they don’t deserve any em/sympathy from us.
But, the real victims, in my opinion, are the wives of these patients…..

Imagine being a wife, living alone, bringing up the kids, killing ur own sexual needs (*assumingly*), waiting for the husband to return from that big city where he’s working so that the family may have a slightly bigger income. And then you get the news that ur husband isn’t keeping well…. He comes home for a while, takes some medicines, feels somewhat better.. and in this visit home, prolly even has sex with you…..
And then he returns only to come back finally with a severely deteriorated condition….
And now u r upset… u rpraying for ur husband…….
And then he is detected wid HIV….

Wat shud u be thinking?????????
Shud u be thinking of his death? Wat wud u do after he dies?
When will he die?
How wil u bring up d kids alone?
And until he dies… he’ll be sick throughout… how wil u meet the expenses????
Or shud u think of ur own life???
Has he given the disease to u?
If u r found wid the disease, it’s over… there’s hell here and hell there…
If not,… well… one hell is good enuf to cause pain…..
If u r pregnant….does ur child have the disease…?
Can u abort the child?
Is the pregnancy past abortion?
Will the child be born wid the disease?
And of course…………….
Besides all these questions, besides all these bruises on ur heart.. there’s one bruise that, I believe, is the deepest….

The bruise of being cheated….
The bruise of coming to know that ur husband slept with another woman while u waited for him.
The bruise of knowing that all the misery in ur life now, and in the future owe their birth to the disloyalty of ur husband.

And to add to the pain is that being a woman, 9 times out of ten… u don’t walk out of the relation.. for the sake of ur children, for thesake of society, or whatever.. u hold on to that same man… and sit beside him as he lies motionless on the bed…. U serve him, clean his shit and feed him and bear all the load.. of a man… who cheated on you.

I wonder how many men wud do that to a woman…
I guess, that’s why women are special.
Whatever…
Sometimes, wen I think of all the pains of being a woman…. I feel it’s such a bullshit to say ‘women are special’ and blah blah…!!! Wat’s the point in saying all this crap??? It doesn’t change the ground reality… does it????

So, the woman stays behind…
You, the woman…. You stay behind with this mofo waiting for ur family to collapse.
How cool is that?

I, very personally, believe that this scar is as deep as a scar created by….rape..probably….

Imagine having a boyfriend.. and finding out that he went on a date or kissed or simple held another girl’s waist…. How wud u react???
Then imagine the same with ur husband???
Then imagine that this mofo of a husband went and happily slept wid another woman??? How wud u react???
Wudn all hell break loose??
Wudn u shout scream… threaten…. And …wel… wat not????/

And then imagine that the mofo got home a disease thru his adventurous pursuits in life……….
And then imagine not being able to show ur anger.. not being able to shout at him.. not being able to curse him for bringing u to this juncture…….
Coz’ the mofo’s pure heavenly soul is goin to depart from his body…. Leaving you wid a shattered heart, a shattered pride and no income.

I can only ask u to imagine…..
Imagine for urself.

P.S.- ya, I told that we need to em/sympathise wid the patient but well…..towards the end I got desp ….and so the “mofo”ism.

P.S.2-All HIV infections are not AIDS… AIDS is a term that actually means the last stage of the spectrum of the disease caused by HIV infection, however, usually, in layman terms.. AIDS and HIV infection are interchangeably used. I’m mentioning this to be on a ‘medically’ correct side.

Allah hafiz

nothing much..

2009-11-22T06:19:00.000+05:30

Assalam
Its been a long long time since I wrote in Confrontation…. And I wonder how many of the very few posts that I have written in this blog begin with these very words…
Newaz
Lots of things have happened in the past 1 and a half months… obviously!! The world doesn’t stop running coz I aint blogging!
So, well, a lot has happened

Sabse pehle toh I cleared my Third Prof Part A Alhamdulillah!
So now am officially in Final Year..
Hee hee hee :D :D :D
Seriously yaar, I was so hell scared bout my results….
It came on the day of the Beautiful Dream bout which am yet to write in Jalpari (the procrastinating me….huh!)… when I reached college that day, my unit mates told me that 6 people have failed… in the whole of Kerala University .. that means 4 colleges (?... am not sure ..?)usi mein I was like ‘gayi Almas’…. Fir we waited and waited and waited and wen we returning from clinics, I heard Puni (whatever her spelling is) from Ophthalm telling that she has received a message from someone saying that 9 in our batch hae failed totally.. that is 6 from 90th and 3 from the additionals…. But advait told her ki aisa kuchh nahi hai… uff!!!! Mera toh by the second tension badh raha tha…
Fir in the bus Anju Anna told me the names of the 6 boys who have flunked in our batch… I cudn believe that Puni was rite….
But khair!!! At least twasnt me!!!
Alhamdulillah…
:D :D :D :D

Aurrr kya hua..>>>>>>>>…
Haan finally after taking four cases, I got a case presentation by Dimple Cheeks…. And woh toh sahi scene raha .. has has ke lot pot ho gaye hum toh…\
Actually dekho present karne ke liye we don’t have any good cases , so, we take chumma cases.. anything that we can get..so I presented an abdominal lump wid a stupid diagnosis… newaz.. since discussion ke liye zyada nahi tha.. sir asked us the procedure of doing the FNAC…. God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kya tamasha raha woh toh…..especially Afzal ka toh aisa kheecha na ki kya bole!!!!
:D :D :D :D :D mazaa hi aa gaya!!!!

Then the news is that our Theatre is closed coz of the shifting and so no patients are being admitted into the wards.. kyuki surgery hi nahi karna toh admit karke kya?
And that’s why we don’t have cases.. ab we understand the pains of the Private Med Coll students…..bechaare.. khair ab toh hum bhi bechaare…

There was thing by the Govt. of Kerala jiske bare mein likhna ka time nahi hai.. par in a nutshell, it says that Doctors of Med coll cannot do PP .. they just got to teach in the Colls. And the next thing is that we have been officially turned into a Referral Unit.. matlab ki now if a patient comes to us wid a disease directly, we shud luk into the matter and then bhagao … coz u see… we r the gr8 referral centre now. Isliye we cannot admit cases that have not been REFERRED…. Ha ha ha!!!! Mazaa hi aa gaya ab toh….

Kahir!!!
Jo hota hai ache ke liye hi hota hai.
Aur kisi ke achhe ke liye nahi toh mere achhe ke liye toh hota hi hai.

Isi Referral Centre ke chakkar mein some Leftists made some tamasha in the Gynaec Op .... I wont write bout it.. coz its long … and coz .. well… I just don want to write… all I can say is that they chose the wrong person for it, they chose Lalitambika Ma’am…. And she is such a dedicated doctor…… whatever happened was very wrong… first of all that behaviour itself was shit.. but if it was hurled on to a doctor whom we know is a bad person, we wud have still felt ok,,.. but for Lambi???? God!! It’s so wrong! There are few people in the world who are as dedicated as her….and not just to patients, even to her students.. if there’s no one to take classes, she herself comes and takes classes for students….even though unka kaam nahi hai saaaaro ka bojh uthana.
Wat they did was very wrong…..

Khair…. Gotto go… aur haan. Medicine ka first sessional hua.. total bakwaas.. alhamdulillah.
Pehle I thot ki essay was right.. but wow! essay was also wrong!!!
Ab next tis surgery after 20 days.. GIT……
Its 6.20 am.. and Almas is hungry.. 1 more hour for breakfast :( :( :(
Chalo
Allah hafiz

Dimple Cheeks....

2009-10-10T13:22:00.000+05:30

Assalam
Dimple Cheeks took a grt class for us…. He asked us ki y do we think he behaved so horribly to us… dil me we thot ki ‘Because u like doin it’..
He asked, ‘Do u think I like behaving this way????’
Dil mein we thot ki, ‘Arrrreeyy dil ka baat bola’…
Then he told…. ‘it is just to make u realize ur standard…. That though u all are final years…. U guys no NOTHING.’ [dhanyawaad.. but when had we told ki we know ANYTHING????] u guys never tuk cases in 2nd year or fourth year….this is to show u where u stand today..’

Ok sir.. hum log ko malum pad gaya…

And then he went on and on and on and on..... actually, if u have read my previous blog posts in this very blog, u’d know that I hadn attended casualty…. And so I had never had the bhagya of attending Dimple Cheeks’ classes.. my friends like him a lot.. I mean, of course he is a super-scratcher.. but his classes are good…. Now, Almas didn’t know that.. but trust me, I really liked his class. We tuk a Verrucous Ulcer case.. the ulcer was in the perianal region… and Sir made us all inspect, palapte and blah blah in front of him.. which I think was really nice, as otherwise, there is no point in taking a case…

But the problem is that I get bored of classes wagairah very easily… so mid way, I wanted to run away.. but who toh rukne ka naam hi nahhi le rahe the…
Fir finally at 1.15 he told ki ok I have to go now…
Hum toh chain ka saans lee.. lekin then hi he told..
‘nothing much.. but I have to go to the ‘palli’’
I was like…. ‘palli?????????///’ [palli is church/mosque]
And since twas a Friday and it was time for Friday prayers.. I thot ki Dimple Cheeks pagal ho gaya hai kya?? Why does he want to go to the masjid?? Ya fir Christians also have some special prayers today?????

Newaz… later I came to know ki Dimple Cheeks is Muslim….
And seemingly, the whole world knows it….
I don’t know how….
Newaz
Even during the examination of the patient, he showed us the patient’s penis and told ki it’s circumcised… (which I didn’t understand :/) and then he asked the patient if his ‘Sunnat Operation’ has been done.. and again I was like, ‘wow yaar! A Chrisian is asking it so nicely, Sunnat ka operation!!!’
Huh!!!
Newaz.. so wen Sir went to the masjid, we ran to have our lunch… but there was only rice at Veg Palace.. I told Aish ki I wil go to Thaff and have my lunch….
Ha ha ha!!!
I had forgotten…
Thaff is a Muslim restaurant and so twas closed for the Friday Prayers....
Lolz…
Then I went to Aryas with a sad heart .. coz most prolly waha bhi the only thing I’d get wud be rice… lekin I was so happy :) I had one masala dosa and 2 chapatis (with the chamandi nad sambhar they give along wid the masala dosa)……

Lekin waha pe rice ko dekhkar laalach aa gaya… I don know why.. they had given so many ‘liquids’ with it.. rasam, sambhar, mor… and wat not.. a plate full of katoras with dferent ‘liquids’.. I think the next time I shall have chor from Aryas..
Well
Then after my lunch, I returned… and sir came after another five minutes..
Then we continued with the clas..

He has given us impositions--- many many many…
Coz we cudn answer anything..
Newaz…
On the whole twas a gud clas….
Squamous cell carcinoma….

And now my unit mates have decided of goin to the casualty from Monday onwards wich I think is so sick. As if it wasn’t enuf that we were spending half of our lives in the hosp that we r now goin to spend our whole lives there..
Newaz..
Actually there is this Hospital Shifting which is ‘almost-happening-almost-not-happening’ and so all the cases will be referred to Kottayam…
There wont be any admissions.. and the Theatre is also being shut down from the 12th. It’s Monday na.. haan it’s Monday.. that means there wont be any cases…
Hmmm
We have seen one Thyroid, one Breast, one Ulcer this week.
Now wat remains is Mass Abdomen, Varicose Veins and Hernia…. Basically these are the six cases… seeing as many as possible in each is good. Lekin I wil be thankful if I even get to see one of the other three… not that we haven’t seen… we have seen many many mnay many cases of each of these in our 2nd and 4th year [I was in Salim Sir’s unit in 2nd year.. I cudn cut classes… and in 4th year I was in Unnithaan Sir’s unit- again I cudn cut classes] so newaz… the thing is that… we never realy examined them well.. only very halka phulka… and that wil not be sufficient this year..
And wais ebhi we have heard that Sukumaran Sir is movin out this year :( :( :( and the new HOD is gonna be Unnithan Sir and he is sooooo strict!!! :( :( :(
Newaz…

Now whatever….

Allah hafiz

Hating Surgery

2009-10-07T22:06:00.001+05:30

Assalam
Hating Surgery...
Allah hafiz

Surgery

2009-10-05T21:13:00.002+05:30

Assalam
I started with Surgery today.......
missing Dr. Legha ...... she treated us like her kids.............. :( :( :( :( :(
we r feelin homeless............. uske aage. I am not really in a mood to write.. waise toh... well i wont even write dat
bye
Allah hafiz

Percussion Notes... and a Jealous Heart :(

2009-09-13T16:26:00.002+05:30

Assalam

Am so jealous of the people who can get that LOUD DHAK DHAK sound while percussion... i get a feeble 'tic tic' and it makes no sense... it gets almost impossible to know if its dull, resonant, hyper resonant, or stony dull...
Most of the people in my unit are boys.. and they get that beautiful sound which makes me go grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....
you shud hear it wen Advait does the percussion.... jaise he's beating on a dhol....
huh!!! the worst part is that though i hardly make any sound with my fingers.. they start paining by the time reach the third intercostals... another huh!!!

Allah hafiz

My First Littmann :)

2009-09-12T20:11:00.002+05:30

Assalam
So finally I got my Littmann… :) :) :)

After four whole years as a medico, I finally bought my Littmann on 1st September, 2009.
This is a classic student’s edition and I got it at a discounted price of Rs.3800. actually, the price is something around 4500 and we get it at the same price in Alleppey, but then..Afzal told me to ask Davis since Davis had bought it from somewhere in Cochin. Davis gave me the address of this shop called Lakshmi Enterprises (he actually drew a rough map for me in my note book :p) and I found a shubh ghadi on the 1st and ran to buy it.
The thing is that most of the people get it from their relatives in the States… and mummy had told Jaanshah chacha to tell Guggi aunty to get one for me. But prolly he didn’t tell coz after that, Guggi aunty had visited India once and had come home.. but she didn’t mention anything bout the steth… then Anisa told ki she’s told her chacha to get for Amuda and me but he was to come only on November… and our Medicine posting ends by October 3rd. And sabse zyada use toh is obviously in Medicine na… toh that’s why I tokd her that I’ll buy it from here itself… Amu and I had decided to go together and buy..but it didn’t work out… coz’ she had gone home for Onam.. and I didn’t want to wait ……coz’ that wud mean goin to Ekm after clinics, and that wud be sooo tiring.. coz even without any extra work after clinics I sleep for three hours straight….
On top of that during Ramzaan, I didn’t really want to stress myself so much…
Isliye I went and got it on 1st.
There were five colours available- Black, Grey, Dark Green, Navy Blue and Red..(they had told that Burgundy is also available, but it wasn’t). I had decided earlier itself that I shall buy the blue one coz’ black toh sabke paas hota hai..
So well, I saw ki ya twas quite ok .. and I got it..
It was only later I noticed that “S” too has a navy blue Litt…:/ :/ :/ uuggghhh! “D” asked me if I didn’t get any colour… I told ki ‘naiiiiiiii.. I wanted to buy blue hi’….:/ :/ after that I noticed S ke steth ka colour and I was like shit yaar!!!
Ab khair!
Whatevs..
Alhamdulillah, I’m so happy…
Actually I had started getting a complex coz I didn’t have a Litt… one day, sitting in the Duty H.S…. Arun P.V,,(yes, the future Chief Minister of Kerala :D) on seeing my ‘Pulse-Wave’ steth told ki even he has a Litt, even if it’s not his own, at least, he’s borrowed it from someone.. and I am still using something else…. I was so full of the ‘grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr’ wala feeling.. :D :D :D lolz…
And sachi mein… suddenly the whole world had Litt.. except a few gals like Amu, A.T, and me :) :) …
Newaz…
But that doesn’t mean that im goin to throw away my old steths.. after all they have been my saathi for the past 4 years.. sleeping soundly in my college bag among the boks and the umbrella and the purana pepsi ka bottle filled with ‘pink’ coloured water :)

My first steth was bought by abbu.. ‘Konica’- maybe 200 Rs ka.
And the second one, “Pulse” was given by Tabraiz bhaiya – that’s around 300 ka.

Newaz…
U sure can guess my happiness by the fact that I have written such a long post only on a steth…
:) :) :)

Long Live my Littu Darling

Allah hafiz

Ramzaan Mubarak

2009-08-23T10:23:00.000+05:30

Assalam alaykum

Ramzaan Mubarak to all :) :)

May Allah bless us all and help us to beat our senses this Ramzaan and forever..
Aameen

Allah hafiz

20 August'09

2009-08-20T19:48:00.000+05:30

Assalam
Don’t try to store things in books and laptops
Try saving them in ur head.
Mere khayal se usse zyada faayda hoga.
Allah hafiz

Busy

2009-08-20T17:49:00.000+05:30

Assalam
Life’s become really busy. Not just because there’s a lot to do but also because I am spending my time worrying bout how to do it all. You see.. I have this great ‘How’ problem in life… I don’t know ‘how’ to study. ‘how’ to manage time.
Newaz.
A month of Medicine is over and I am nowhere. I still don’t know anything.
The other day we had to submit our records and my format was wrong. Ma’am got so angry ki kya bataye. Obviously.. she then told me to re-write CNS and show her. I wrote the CNS and submitted the record yesterday. But, today she didn’t get time to discuss it wid me. I am so scared. I feel she’ll scold again coz even the other systems aren’t correct. I really hope she leaves it here and just tells me to do it properly from the next time onwards. I mean, c’mon… we have to submit 2 more cases this Monday. So, let me think of that. This thing is really troubling me. Newaz. Yesterday a microtopic was given “Cerebellum and its Connections” but none of us were there. Only S was there and he remembered bout it only at night 9.30 pm. He then called up and told me to do it. now actually it was P’s turn. dekha jaaye to I had missed my turn wen I had gone home, so I was supposed to do it wen I returned .. but that day the topic given was “Swine Flu” and I think M wanted to impress Ma’am and so he took the topic, then wen the next turn came for D.. he cudn take coz of some reason and so, P shud have done but M called me up and told me to do it. I think some kind of manipulation is going on. I don’t why I think so. Coz wen it was my turn to present the case to Ma’am, M did instead of me. Ok Ma’am had told but ideally, it shud be told to the person who’s presenting the case, but yaha waisa nahi kiya.pata nahi. Shayad im being paranoid.
Khair. The saving grace is that they are not my friends.
Agar hote jaise ki us dusre unit mein, toh mere ko bura lagta. I mean am feeling bad now too. Lekin at least, yeh log mere dost nahi hai na.
To theek hai.
Fir today, the microtopic wasn’t discussed, it’ll be done tomorrow. And guess wat tomorrow I have my symposium too… “Congential Hypothyroidism and Classification and Prevalence of Autoimmune Thyroidism”
And the grtst thing is that ab se har Friday mera hi turn aayega meaning I will always have both the microtopic and symposium together.
Huh!
Newaz.
I am so scared pata hai.
I don’t have any idea how to study, how to go about things. How to start, how to move ahead.
I don’t know anything.
I feel so lost.
Allah hafiz.

Day 4 Medicine- OP

2009-07-25T23:23:00.000+05:30

Assalam
Had a gr8 presentation on Plantar Reflex by Aboobaker….
Then OP….
Nothing gr8…
Will be having end-postings…
Life is shit filhaal!!!
I hate everything….
SFI won… in our batch Sangeeth won…
Got angry at mummy for no reason.
Life is really shit.
Allah hafiz

Day 3-Medicine.. Seminar on "Pneumonia"

2009-07-24T19:48:00.001+05:30

Assalam
Day was Alhamdulillah oki.
I took another GI case today, presentation was only with haematemesis and melena… cudn make a diagnosis. Liver palpable normal, I’m mentioning it coz that’s the only finding I got. :D :D :D :D the patient wasn’t able to speak properly… these things scare me to death.. Allah plz .. for my exam.. give me a patient who speaks CLEAR Malayalam.. SIMPLE Malayalam… knows English to a certain extent .. and best wud be if he knows Hindi/English completely….
:( :( ….
Newaz… I asked most of the things from his wife…
Another thing that scares me a lot is the patient’s reaction… I mean, I’m just too scared to ask patients to do anything.. I feel they are goin to shout at me… :( .. I end up examining patients very superficially….
Like today… I didn’t even check for ascites, thought he was a GI case and had a sexy alcohol history…. With abdominal distension as well. :(
Newaz…
Gotto learn a lot of Medicine… and lots and lots and lots of Malayalam.
I have learnt the name of all our juniors..
92nd- Ajeesh, Amal, Amritha, Aneesha, Ancy
95th- Akanksha, Afzal, Abhilash, {another gal…I forgot her name :( }
PGs- Dr. Abhilash, Dr. Deepak, Dr. Savita………
From 6th… 89th will be coming for their revision posting.. they’re our seniors.. :( so, preference MAY be given to them… but, then… c’mon .. we r all final years now!!!!!!!!!!!
Newaz… 92nd will be leaving by then.. so that is good.. otherwise twud have got very very crowded….

Afzal (our Afzal.. not the junior) tuk a malaria case for a just-in-case-case-presentation.. I mean, we were to have our seminar… but then we never know teachers na!!!!!! so well.. he told he palpated the spleen…… :( :( :( :( ……..i mean good for him but :( :( :( :( for me… I cant palpate anything other than the liver and that too in a way very different from the other students :( ………….

Newaz…
Then we had our presentation.. went well, sabhi ka.. Alhamdulillah….
And ya before that during the rounds…. We stood with ma’am.. she told us sooooooooooooooooooo many chhota chhota things… she’s so nice…
Actually, all teachers are nice… it’s we who don’t work, don’t answer them and irritate them… and then get chorified…… huh!!!
Newaz…
Saw Dr. Raseela today… :) :) …… she’s soooooooooooooooooooooooo beautiful :) :) she is Dr. Lalithambika’s sis…. Lambi is also soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo beautiful :) :) ….and they teach beautifullyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy……

Newaz..
We were left at 12.30 today….. missed the college bus, walked down to the college, met Anisa, :) :) :) :) Also met Mr. Irresistible. :) :) :)
The micro topic for tomorrow is Plantar Reflex by Aboobaker..
And the topic for next Friday is “Hepatic Encephalopathy”
Tomorrow we have OP…..Tomorrow there’s an election in our college….
Anyone reading this..
“Whenever you have election.. plz vote for SFI… SFI rocks” :) :)

For Chairman-
SFI candidate- Vaisakh (92nd)..and me thinks he’s the third most handsome boy in the college.. :) :) [ the most handsome is Prasanth (88th)… and second most is Ben (90th) :) :) .. Mr. I …. Is too Irresistible to be compared to anyone….well… actually all those boys are dark.. you know I love dark men….. but Mr. I is a ‘case’ for me….. not my ‘conventional choice’…newaz..]
KSU- Sachin (94th)

For Arts Club Secretary-
SFI candidate-Rahulan
KSU- Bijith

For UUC-
SFI candidates- Jasim (that sweeto boy :) ), Biran Roy….
KSU- George (my b’day mate) .. I don know if there’s someone else… must be… newaz… I am gonna vote for SFI.. so I don really bother bout KSU….

You know wats bad bout KSU--- they use Rahul, Priyanka’s pic for campaigning…
They did that last year too…. :( :( I loooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvveeee Rahul Priyanka…. But no. that wont make me vote for KSU..ive told many times earlier…. In Kerala, I love the Left…. Whatever be my preferences outside Keralam…

And there’s goin to be elections for the batch reps too…
In 90th, Afzal is from SFI and Sangeeth from KSU…..

Wen we had joined college, there was no KSU pheSU….

Newaz…
Have I told u that Mr. I is a Leftist???????
I mean seriously Leftist!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not like… chumma SFI support….
That is something many of us do…. Many in our college are Congress supporters otherwise… but in college politics, we r all SFI waales….jaise ke me… anisa… baaki I don’t think I shud name…
But Mr.I is a pakka Leftist….. :) :) …

Newaz…Toh well.. mera haath definitely Congress ke saath hai.. par kal mera vote jaega SFI ko…. Lolz.... however silly that sounds.. :p
inshaAllah....

Allah hafiz.

Day 2 Medicine

2009-07-24T02:30:00.000+05:30

Assalam
Day was Alhamdulillah gr8..
Class on BP by Dr. Legha…. Then discussion on Lymph Nodes (case was hemiplegia.. by Advait) by Dr. Legha…
i tried to take a case of varices..
Got seminar tomorrow… Complications of Pneumonia
Homework.. dher saara.. didn’t do.. inshaAllah later. Now gotto sleep.
Wrote a long post for Jalpari.. isliye.. abhi yaha par nahi likhenge zyada..
Its 2.30 am.. wow! pata nahi wen wil I do the hw.
Allah hafiz

Day 1 Medicine- Pneumonia

2009-07-22T14:47:00.001+05:30

Assalam
So today was the first day of Final Year, Alhamdulillah :) …went well. Dr. Legha, the HOD, told our unit (her unit) at the beginning itself that we r not allowed totake leave in Final Year. *sad*sad*…. Lets see wat happens at the end…
She also told that we have a staff shortage and inspite of that the Department gives due attention to the final years. So, we shud make use of it. And that if attendance in the theory classes will be below 50%, classes wont be conducted.
She told that Trivnadrum too doesn’t have Theory classes… the punishment of lack of attendance wud be dat we’ll have to study on our own. :/

Newaz..
We had a case presentation... by Aboobaker.. to Dr. Padmakumar…
Now, just as a piece of info to the few people who read this blog… my unit members are
1.Aboobaker Siddiq
2.Advait M.K.
3.Afzal Mohammed
4.Aiswarya Dhanapalan
5.Akhil P.Suresh
6.Almas Shamim

Ok…
So the case was Pneumonia superimposed on COPD.
The discussion went well. Sir, did it really systematically… explaining us how to reach a diagnosis…
The patient had fever and haemoptysis along with purulent cough.. indicating infection.
The patient had left sided chest pain, movements were restricted on the left side, vocal fremitus was increased, and percussion had a dull note… indicating left sided consolidation.
COPD cud be found out by the history… 20 yrs of smoking history.. and recurrent respiratory infections initially… later moving into an almost continuous infection for 8 yrs…. No relief seen.

x-ray showed consolidation on the left side and compensatory emphysema on the right side. Th costo-phrenic angle was obliterated (lt) and fibrotic strands cud be seen.
mmmm.. that’s all I remember in this case.

We also have a symposium on Pneumonia this Friday… my topic is Complications of Pneumonia.

Well…
During the rounds, Legha Ma’am showed us many X-rays… and told some chhota chhota points.
Like in the patient whom I spoke bout, she showed us many nail changes.. then told bout the nail changes in the various systemic diseases.
Explained us how to read an X-ray. I mean the sequence… and then .. mmm.. dats all I remember.

I, personally, took a case…. No diagnosis.. only chest pain… admitted day before yesterday.
Later Aish told me that we shudn be takin such cases coz they don’t have any findings and so wont be kept in the exam…. We cant even rite it in our case record. (btw, we have to submit our case record at the end of every week.. its an eight week posting). Well.. watevs… since the admission this week was low, there weren’t many cases in the ward…( M1 ward… don’t know bout the other Units). And so, tis goin to be really difficult this week for us to find cases to present and for the record.
Newaz.
I also saw a case which presented with generalized oedema…. He;s had diabetes for the past 10-12 years….
And I really need to learn Malayalam if I don’t want to irritate my patients….
:( :( :(

There are two junior batches with us (of course juniors!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) who can be senior to the final years>>> ha ha ha ), 92nd and 95th…. Amal (92nd ) and Akanksha (95th.. from Andamans) are there
Newaz.
That’s all I think. Cant promise a daily update.
Allah hafiz

Third Professional MBBS Part 2 ... (Final MBBS)..

2009-07-21T22:56:00.000+05:30

Assalam
It's here..... my final year... the year in which i have to study the whooolllleee of the course... starts tomorrow... Im posted at Medicine...Unit M1.... H.O.D's Unit.
Allah guide me and help me.. and pleeeaasssee be with me.
hmmmmmm....
Allah hafiz

On Going Home.. exams.. postings.. and Final Year..

2009-07-19T19:03:00.001+05:30

Assalam

I have spent 19 days in Alleppey. They say final year starts on the 22nd. So, had 21 days to go home and come back but, well… I cudn. Thanx to the greatest uncertainty in the world- Kerala University’s timetable. Well, so.. then I decided to go home during my Med end and Surgery start… during the time of Eid-ul-fitr.. we’ve got the tickets too. Ani told ki end-posting nai hota hai Medicine mein….lekin abhi abhi I spoke to Jibi chichi and she told ki Legha Ma’am conducts end-posting for her unit students…. She does.. she does.. she does..! so, there goes!
I knew it…. how can it possibly be that I go home and nothing is screwed! It just has to happen. Newaz, we get some, we lose some. You see.. we’ll be having Onam hols also.. but, at that time Ramzan rahega and I don’t want to go home for Ramzaan. Then, ther’d be Christmas hols also.. but that time to I’d be having Paeds/Gynaec na!! I cant even imagine cutting these two postings… now, I seriously hope ki aur koi problem na ho.. and that humara second posting Surgery hi ho… coz’ I’m cutting around a week of Surgery- attendance ka inshaAllah problem nai hona chahiye coz’ I was in S1 in 3rd Sem- Saleem Sir’s Unit – had cut 3 days only (out of 2 months). Then in 6th sem- in S2, Unnithan Sir’s Unit. Had cut 3 days in 1 month. So, Alhamdulillah attendance is fine.
Medicine me toh I hardly attended- 3rd sem mei my babies were born, so, I used to be at Chennai most of the time. I attended , maybe, 1 month of the 2 months posting. And in 6th sem- ZERO days- :D :D .. I cut the whole month and went home. If someone checks the attendance of the previous years, I’m done. :/ :/ Newaz.

I bought Kundu 5th edition-new edition in2010… but wat to do! Gotto study now na!
I already have Davidson, I shall be using the same Hutchison (old edition) which I used in 3rd sem ( I mean.. which I bought in 3rd sem… I didn’t actually USE it :D).. and I also have an oooolllllddd editin of George Matthew… tis actually Anice chechi’s buk.. she’d given it to Shikha didi.. she gave it to me before she left…
Besides, Medicine is basically Physio+ Patho+ Pharmac- and I have enuf and more texts of these subjects (ok. In Pharmac I have only Tripathi- but given my gr8 knowledge of Pharmacology- Tripathi alone will suffice for the time being). So, well, in short.. I have all the resources. I have books, notebooks, pens, paper, internet, lappy and Alhamdulillah an average faculty of vision, muscular power etc…
Ab bas dekhna hai ki
“Mere naseeb mein tu hai ki nahi.. Tere naseeb mein main hu ki nahi..
Ye hum kyua jaane. Yeh who hi jaane.. jis ne likha hai sabka naseeeeeeb”

To well.. That’s for now!

Ok-
A little bout my univs.
Alhamdulillah- univs were ok. If Allah permits, can I say.. bad???
Cant say if I ‘ll pass…but, hoping for miracles.. the worst was Ophthalm- can you believe it-I screwed up Iridocyclitis (dat was the essay) I have studied it like 3 hundred thousand times--- and yet in the exam hall I was totally blank. Totally…isiliye.. I say… zyada padha mat karo.. newaz.. jo waqt pe yaad aana hai who yaad aa hi jayega!
:D
Khair
I’ve got lots to write in Jalpari.. ptchhhh…. I wish I had a day of 48 hrs instead of 24… I’d have wasted 36 and again tried to squeeze in the rest of my work in the remaining 12.. like I presently do with my 24. so, well! There’s no point in wishing for crap!
Btw.. am wearing specs..
I’ve got power !!! :D :D :D :D :D :D
-1.25 in the left eye- Myopic Astigmatism:D
Newaz
Love always…
Mmmmmm
o.k.
love to mummy, abbu, aapa, bhaiya, gudia and angel
kick to all others- get lost!
Allah hafiz.

On my exams and love for Kerala :)

2009-06-08T23:27:00.000+05:30

Assalam
writing after a really really long time. Well, have my final sessionals. Theory is done. . . Practicals on . . Had my SPM prac today, family folder was on immunization. . . Clinico-social cases were based on filariasis and geriatrics. Went well, Alhamdulillah. Tomorrow's a hol. . . A batch ke students are sleeping. But Almas hadn written her record on time, so she is awake. . . . Writing . . Filhal to on her blog. . . After sometime inshaAllah in the record too :)
will update bout my other papers later inshaAllah. . . Newaz . . Twas bad. . . I cleared Spm though, Alhamdulillah :) will fail in ent and ophthalm . . . Pakka :( newaz. . .
and ya, we haven lost affiliation. . That was some madness spread by the news walas. . .
btw IMC is in love with our college , probably. . . They are totally stuck with us. . . They were here only a few weeks ago, (when i wrote bout the affiliation). . . And today they were here again. . . And the whole Alleppey Medical College Campus looked like a parking lot. A parking lot full of cars with the 'medico' logo . . . (please visit jalpari-my other blog, just in case you have never had the good fortune to see th medicine symbol :) )
newaz. . . Am in the college hostel tonite, for combined study (no one is studying).
got drenched in the rain today.
the realization that am entering final year is filling me with a hundred emotions. . . Fear. . . Nostalgia. . . . Love. . . And the blah blahs :) . . . With each passing day, my stay in Kerala is shortening. Dont know if i shud be happy bout returning home. . . Or sad bout leavin this state that i have come to love so much, the state that didnt give me friends, didnt give me a plug point, didnt give me a stable 'time table' of exams so i could plan my visits home, the state that didnt give me good food, and yet, the state which i love with all my heart. . . . For teaching me all that she did, for giving me a 'state' to call my 'own'. . For being my home for that part of my life which is considered the most beautiful by so many. .i came here when i was almost 18 . . Am 21 and a half now . . Lets see how many more years in God's Own Country. :)
and well. . . We never know. . :) who knows i return back to this place? ? ?
newaz. .
got to write 6 cases, . . Am goin :)
Allah hafiz

labour room revisited :D

2009-05-23T22:29:00.001+05:30

Assalam
Twas my third day of Labour Room posting. I had mentioned in my previous post that I wanted to have a day shift this week coz of the namaz thingie… and that meant being with the first unit. So, God heard my prayers… :)
We are roll numbers 1 to 6 in first unit… Abubaker, Advait, Afzal, Aish, Akhil and me. Actually we did go to LAmbi to ask her to shuffle the numbers and send me in the second unit and let Aneesha enter the first unit (she’s Afzal’s gal frnd and Aish’s best friend) the reason we had given was that Almas wud be alone while going to the hostel coz the others are boys and Aish is a day-schi :D :D :D lolz… lies realy don work wid me… newaz… LAmbi told ki we, as internees, are supposed to LIVE in the internees’ room for 15 days… and not go back to the hostel after each shift…
So, the plan of shuffling numbers flopped big time…. But, since I wanted to have my ‘no namaz’ time during the day shift, I was kind of relaxed…. But Aneesha got really desp bout it… she started crying..
Khair… that was over…
I assisted two deliveries… day was Alhamdulillah ok. But I didn’t get attendance coz I ran to get the bus soon after class was over (at 8.45 pm)…that’s coz the Sisters nite not open the door so late at nite.. I had told them ki I’d be bak by 9 par I was late. That made me super desp and I shouted at mummy. God knows why I do this,,,, and then I was soooooooooooooo sorry… I called up mummy so many tines to say sorry,
I luv my parents,,,, :)

This was written on the third day of my labour room, jaise ki likha hai…. I slept mid way….posting it newaz… coz im so fed up of deleting half written things, I have decided I will post all my half written things from now on… maybe it will stop me from doing it again.
Newaz
Allah hafiz

Studies

2009-05-14T16:12:00.000+05:30

Assalam
so, inshaAllah me's gonna start studying today. And ya, my college has lost affiliation. I hope we get it back soon as otherwise our centre for exam may be shifted. :( newaz. Paid the tata bill and exam fees and didnt attend theory classes today. Came back and slept as otherwise will have to sleep in the evening.
had masala dosa and one uzhunuvada and one nimbu pani nd one pista sharbat for lunch.
nw had idli sambhar and black coffee. Will have chaya too :)

eyes hurtin.
tata shop has been shifted from vellakinar to irumbupalam, near Campus Collections. Wasted 20 rupees and lots of time goin to the old shop to learn that its moved.

newaz
Allah hafiz

Tired And Stinking !!!

2009-05-11T12:11:00.000+05:30

Assalam
i reached the hostel 15 minutes ago, . . . Had my lunch of puttu kadla (the breakfast ammachi had kept for me) . . Now its 12.15 pm . . . Class starts at 1 pm . . .
i am stinking. Gotto have my bath, pray fajr ka kaza, zohar , get ready and leave. . . Dont really think can make it for the 1st hour. . . Will go for the 2pm class inshaAllah. . .
we had a sexy discussion on post-menopausal bleeding by LAmbi. . . I am totally in love with that female. . . newaz. I am tired. And i came to know that we have an end posting of SPM after two weeks. :( i am screwed. Then final sessionals from 27th and universities from 22nd june.
i am YET to start with my studies . .
Well. . . Gotto go now.
Allah hafiz.

Last day of internment

2009-05-11T07:14:00.000+05:30

Assalam
"Close thine eyes and as thou sleepest, Heaven will change thy fortune from Evil to Good."

waiting for this last day of internment to get over. Its 7 am. One more hour to go, but its goin to be more hectic today than other days. Baaki days mei we used to return to the hostel (though we were not allowed to) every morning, but today, since our internment gets over and ward posting starts, we will have to go to the wards straight from the labour room and all of us are in O1 unit that is the HOD 's unit and that lady "LAmbi" is such a terror that if you meet her, you'd say Hitler was a merciful man . Newaz. I like her, nevertheless. . She's got power. And power is always a turn on. Her name is 'Lalithambika Karunakaran' btw . And she is an over -dedicated lady.

I had completely forgot to write, well. . . I put TWO sutures to an episiotomy :) :) :) :) skin sutures :) :)
The housie was Dr. Ancymol J. :)
And it was a Saturday :) :) :)

and dont ask me how come i am on blogger thru my mobile.
newaz
Allah hafiz

Labouring in the Labour Room :D

2009-04-30T18:52:00.000+05:30

Assalam
me here in the labour room :) :(
the past three nights i tried to post in this blog... But could not. Fell asleep. . . Adding to the fact that i am heck tired, is my stye. . . It hurts. . . :(
newaz. . . Now, we have to assist a minimum of 10 deliveries in 30 days of labour room. . . I had already assisted 11 in my 6th sem and 4 in the present one. . .
had submitted 5 in the record....but since most of the data was made up, i got a 2 out of 10 :p so now am plannin to inshaAllah assist fresh cases with all correct data. . . I have 3 cases ke full info. . . Need to assist two more. . .
newaz i like assisting . .
class now. . . So i may stop anytime.
waise, i forgot to tell . . . Am in the first half
allah hafiz

Internment starts tomorrow :(

2009-04-26T23:21:00.004+05:30

Assalam

got my internment from tomorrow.. labour room posting... I hate it...
well...we had the 1st labour room posting at the beginning of my pre-final year.. 6th sem i mean....
At that time we were all very excited coz' twas a new year.. newaz... now, we r at the end of our pre-final (this is the last posting- 15 days internment, 15 days gynaec wards)....and we r so scared bout the exams and all that we r just not interested in assistin deliveries....
well, so tomorrow inshaAllah id come to know if I'm in the first half or the second...
we r actually 11 students
1-Aboobaker
2-Advait
3-Afzal
4-Aishwarya
5-Akhil
6-Almas
7-Amuda
8-Aneesha
9-Anisa
10-Anju Anna Abraham
11-Anju A.T.
we r divided into first 5 and second 6. or maybe first 6 and second 5. so, my fate will be decided tomorrow.
I wud prefer to be in the second half for Amu and Anisa...but, well. let's see... last time, ma'am had divided us into 5 and 6, but, then she noticed that the first five had only 1 gal, so, she sent me wid the first five and then I had told ma'am ki id be alone while going back to the hostel and blah blah blah blah... she told ki y do you even need to go back??? (we are supposed to stay there 15 days straight)... well, since it was some other ma'am and not Lambi, she had agreed..
don know wat will happen tomorrow.InshaAllah all will be good.
there's another problem.
If ma'am agrees to keep me in the second unit, i'll be having 'night'...but filhaal am not in my 'praying days', so, i rather take 'day' that will be from morning 8 to evening 8.... for one week.
And next week, wen i wud be praying, I'd be having 'night' so i shall only miss Isha and Fajr(of the next morning)... that wud be easier to finish... otherwise, if i have day the next week, i'd have to come back and pray around 18-20 rakaats..
don know!!!
had this conversation wid amuda by sms

Amu: "Man, I hate internment "
Me: "I'm just writing a post on my blog saying the same thing :(. I've been depressed the whole day."
Amu: "Namak orumichu karayam" (we'll cry together)
Me:" Ya .. in chorus... 1 2 3 start.. boo hoooooooo "
Amu: "Nyways will hope for the best"
Me: "Ya, InshaAllah all deliveries will be postponed by 2 weeks, inshaAllah all ladies in and around alpy will go to Kottayam for delivery, or to that beach hospital, where you were born...and inshaAlah there will be no emergencies..And inshaAllah the doctors will be in a good mood.. And inshaAllah everything will be ok,.
Your partner in pain :(
Almas"
Amu: "dats a good 1. inshaAllah it will be fine; Hurray!"
hmmmm
inshaAllah all will be good
Allah hafiz

Cataract Surgery :)

2009-04-01T19:01:00.005+05:30

Assalam

Well, I maintain my tradition to keep popping into this blog, every once in a while…. This time in a very excited mood! Today, I saw TWO surgeries… and for the first time in my life, I was ACTUALLY watching the surgeries… :) :) I mean we have had two months General Surgery posting in 2nd year, 1 month General Surgery posting in 4th year and also seen a few surgeries in Gynaecology…. But, never did I feel as interested as I did today…. Don know why!:)
We r having our Ophthalmology posting goin on and ther’s no separate ‘theatre day’ as used to be in Surgery. Here, operations are carried out everyday, and three students can go the theatre at a time, to see the operations.. today was my turn…. i went along with Aishwarya and Amuda… we saw two cataract surgeries. :)

CATARACT

It was amazing to see how the docs cud manage dealing with such a delicate organ so well… not that other organs aren’t delicate..but, wat I mean is ‘eyes’ are so small and the procedures also involve instruments and incisions that are so minute. I was amazed!!!
Now, people who know me wud be knowing how gr8 a medico I am and how thrilling the proposition of doing a post graduation seems to me. So, each time I move into a new Department (read: each time I have a new clinical posting), I try to weigh my chances in that Department.. and unfortunately I haven’t yet figured out an area of expertise (possible expertise :D ) that I cud (CUD CUD CUD) fit into.
I have liked so so many streams in medicine. To name a few- Pathology, Medicine, Gynaecology. But, as in all other subjects, in these too, I look for excuses that mite save me from even considering them to be options for my post graduation.
Pathology- I’m not gud with microscopes, so I shudn try to play with the lives of people! I mite end up declaring a patient with a mild fibrotic nodule to be suffering from Breast carcinoma, or say that a malignant melanoma is just a harmless black wart….
Medicine- Anatomy+Physiology+Biochemistry+Pathology+Pharmacology+Microbiology+Radiotherapy+Radiodiagnosis+Dermatology+Psychaitry= Medicine
You think I am crazy????
Gynaecology- bringing babies to this world is not an easy task darling! Besides, the lochia !!!! I can’t spend my whole life swimming in lochia! We need to do ghusl after touching lochia, before we can pray!!!! How many times dyu want me to make ghusl in a day????????????????????????????????/
Newaz…. So, come Ophthalmology and Almas starts luking for excuses again….
Now, since she genuinely likes Biology and MBBS in general, she needs to look for real solid reasons, other wise she wudn be able to convince herself! And the excuse she finds here is- “The lack of hand-eye co-ordination”
:) :) :)

All the operations are done using a microscope, where the docs luk into the microscope and operate with their hands on the eye…. It’s like how in the Mahabharata, my darling Arjuna shot his arrow into the fish’s eye by lukin into the reflection of the fish!!!
Now, now, now!!!
Almas is no Arjuna!!! :D :D :D :D
She becomes a bheegi billi (wet cat ?????!!!!!!:D :D :D) at the thot of doin anything with a scalpel or knife….(or canula or sutures or even filin up investigation forms :D :D)
Lolz..
But, newaz…
Seriously speaking… surgery is a field that can really give you satisfaction (2nd only to Money! Wat a thing to be preceded by! :D)
Ya! It does need a lot of skill, but, at the end of the day, wen u have removed an ulcerated part, an outgrowth, or even an inflamed appendix, it gives you feeling of completeness, of knowing that SOMETHING has been done! It’s a field where you can most of the time, if not always, get some, if not total, result at the time of treatment itself! Contrast it with any other branch of medicine where the treatment usually depends on the patient’s commitment, follow-up and blah blah!!! Here, you can actually take out the gangrenous part of the colon, preserve it in a bottle, and hold it up to the patient and say, “look, here is the monster I killed!”…
The people who got their cat.surgeries done today, mite be able to see in a few days, inshaAllah, and get used to seeing clearer than before. And wen he’ll come bak to meet the doc for follow up and wen the doc will see his pateient WITH VISION, how good will the doc feel!.......
Medicine is like slow poisoning the enemy- you’ve got to wait and wait and wait, and still be unsure if the enemy wud die or not!
Surgery is like holding a pistol at the enemy’s temple and THISHKIAUUUUUU!!!!!
:D :D :D
Of course, Allah is the Almighty! Nothing overpowers His Will, no surgeries, no medications!!!
But, I’m sure you know wat I mean!!!
Newaz gotto go!
Lots of record work to be completed!!
Achha, before I go.. I also saw a patient with congenital cataract yesterday. He’s 34 yrs old, married wid a little baby, never went to skool, got no permanent work, goes to whomever calls him to work……..

Can you imagine not seeing all that you are seeing???????? Can you imagine not being able to look into the screen you are lukin into? Can you imagine never having seen ur baby, ur mum, ur sister? Can you imagine never seeing the sunset? Neve having seen the stars decorating the nite sky?
And can you imagine being a trainer to engineers at a reputed company, in spite of the abovementioned handicap?
Yes, the trainer at Tata Elxsi Bangalore Unit is visually handicapped… He is blind!
Allah hafiz

I wish wasn't a bad bad gal :D

2009-02-15T21:06:00.002+05:30

Assalam
Have got ENT from tomorrow onwards…. Hmmmm… I flunked ENT in my first sessionals…. :( wasn’t really expecting it.. I mean.. the paper hadn’t been good.. but… ummm fir bhi… not fail types…to khair! Kal se I’ve got ENT and I remember having decided to start studying seriously from the beginning of my 7th sem.. lekin .. since I am a bad bad gal wen it comes to anything related to studies I have been postponing the ‘seriously padhna karyakram’ to the never-arriving-tomorrow….huh!!! the entire SPM posting is over and I haven’t studied a single word….crap yaar!! I haven’t even finished writing the record.. have been bringing Anu’s record for the past 1 week lekin I just can’t get myself to actually sit down and start copying….
I hate SPM….
HAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE…… :( :( :( :( :(
Newaz….. I really do wish ki I do start learning the tricks of medicine now… coz otherwise am gonna have a bad bad screwing soon enuf… *uuggh*
God! Ppl are actually thinking of PG and stuff….
*blah*
Am I interested in a PG?????????????? *hehehehehehehe*…. We rather not talk bout it! Or else my aapa will screw me!!! :D :D :D :D
But you know there’s this really sad part bout my not studying……
Actually 2 sad parts…

1st being the fact that I was my school topper… and here suddenly being a student who gets marks like “baal-baal-bachi” or “pass-hote-hote-reh-gayi” actually hurts….
Well, not that I want some miracle to happen ki hum padhe bhi nahi aur paper faadte rahe… lekin.. u know.. there’s this little pricky feeling I get!!!
I know I ain’t studying… not at all.. reading things once will be of no help in this vast damned cursed course… *hate*hate*hate*……….. par u know me na.. to bas fir rehne do!! :D :D :D :D
2nd is the part where ppl EXPECT… aaj hi shaam ko mummy was telling ki wen u return as a doc.. u will take care of me.. we wont need to stand in queues to see docs… *pang*pang*pang*
The times wen aapa and bhaiya ask me things .. any ‘doctor-stuff’ I mean…. And wen I don’t know-----not becoz it is something very hi-fi… but becoz “””I””” haven’t studied… either that or the fact ki my way of studying is also very exam oriented (I don’t mean the practically-exam-oriented.. I mean “padho-likho-bhoolo” types). So I know NOTHING.
Wen I go home, some ppl like ‘Akka’, our washerwoman; Ajmer bhaiya- whoz my aapa’s driver… and other such people , if u get wat I mean… say ki ‘aur kitna saal baaki hai kiran?’ and that they are lukin forward to my return so that I can treat them…
*sob*sob*sob*
It hurts…. Hurts bad.. trust me!
Ummmmmmmm.. can I add another sad part???? Huh!!! whom am I asking? Of course, I can add!! :D :D
So the 3rd sad part to my not studying is that…………. I RRRRRRREEEEEEAAAALLLLLLLLYYYYY hate this course…. Not that I didn’t like biology.. I did !! vry much….
But i was more of a history baby….
I still remember how sad I was wen I had opted for the Science Stream after 10th….well… cudn really help it.. there are no ‘Humanities’ ke skuls back home… we only have Govt. skuls with aawara bachas in the ‘arts’ stream ke skuls….*ttcchh*ttcchh*ttcchh*
Khair ab wat to do? Jaane do! Even after my 12th I had tried a lot to move back to humanities…(which was of no effect coz of the gr8 “Aapa Anger Syndrome”) had applied for English in JNRM and my name was at the top of the list…. :D :D :D had 95% in English.. and no sane person who scores marks in 90s.. ever thinks of becoming an English teacher (let alone studying in JNRM :D).. well, at least not in a Territory where we get free seats to Medicine and Engineering… *blah*blah*blah*
(now, coming to think of it.. I was actually sad ki I got a 95 (only 95????????:( :( :( )in English---- hhihihi… who bhi kya zamaane the!!!!:D :D :D :D )
Ha to newaz.. I think I wandered from wat I actually wanted to write (that;s just so typically me…. Oh baby baby!!! Oops I did it again…..i played with ur heart.. got lost in the game.. oh baby baby!!!! :D :D :D )
To wat I mean is ki I really hate this course.. and I cant (however hard I try) imagine myself as a doc.. that’s just not me…
I rather be studying interior decoration…. And painting houses black and blue and brown.. or maybe teaching little angels (you have no idea……… HOW much love is crammed up in my heart for kids-------------I’m absolutely CRAZY bout kids)…and all this of course, IF and IF and IF I work.. coz’ if u ask me.. wat is the ONE wish I have in my life-it’s to be able to be a good mom!!! And then if u ask me wat other things dyu want form life? And I wud say – to be a gud wife, a gud daughter, a gud sister, a gud friend, and of course a gud sis/daughter-in-law……. Relations are the most important thing in my life.. prolly coz I had so few of them.. newaz… not a time to get senti…

And then don’t forget how badly I want to gain knowledge--------------- inshaAllah if I get married to a ‘shehzaada saleem’ (as mummy calls him! *blah*).. I’d only be at home… take care of my family and learn things.. I’d learn languages, and religion (am madly passionate bout religion!!!), craft (do I love craft?????????????????????? YAY! YAY! YAY! :D) etc.etc.etc
Lekin I know no such thing is gonna happen…….. I cant escape…..
Im caught up in this dead maze…. Which has no solution.. no way out….no whoever marries me, be it Azhar or neone else, marries me knowing ki ha this gal has an mbbs ka degree.. she’ll slog out her ass and get home bucks!!!... strange how the world runs.. isn’t it?????
Well, at least it’s better than Kerala… yaha par.. wat u r .. isn’t as imp as how much you pay to buy the groom….f*** the *sixers*…. You’d faint if I start telling the dowry these crank heads get from the gals………. God!!!! Save our souls!!!
Newaz…
So am into this mess… and unless Maalik wants it to happen… I wont be able to run anywhere from it…. Prolly I’ll be forced to take a PG even……..
I was a loser wen I tuk Science.. I was a loser again wen I tuk MBBS… I seriously don’t wanna be a loser again…. God give me the strength !!!
I don wanna waste my life at something I can never be…. 6 yrs have gone down the gutter (professionally I mean--- life is Alhamdulillah gr8)….i don wanna waste anymore yrs………
Newaz.
Gotto go
Allah hafiz

Finally... I'm Back!!!!!!

2009-02-14T15:45:00.003+05:30

Assalam

writing after 3 and a half months.... very bad.. but kya kare????
this post is not really on any particular thing.. just to get me bak on trak... if i dont post now, i dont think i wil ever post again.. so.. lets start againn.. :D ok na?

hmm... 3 postings are over tab se ab tak.
Surgery
Medicine
First Sessional Exams (flunked ENT, cleared ophthalm, dont know SPM ka result :D)
and SPM
i cut the whole of Medicine and went home :D :D :D
because im a bad bad girl...
but then its ok...:D
everything's ok.
now very few months remain in the prefinal.... (isn't it scary to think that we already are in final MBBS part 1.... God!!!! i'm happy calling it prefinal...:D)

Dr.Lalita Ambika is planning to start PG coaching and many in our batch may join..
yes, you guessed it rite! i will not :D :D :D
coz im a bad bad girl :D :D :D
got lots of stuff to write...i'll try
seriously i will
now i understand why we dont see many bloggers in the medical community..
its coz this is a bloody sucker field. :(
newaz
tc
Allah hafiz

Spurious associations

2008-10-31T16:23:00.000+05:30

Assalam
Am sitting in Davidson rite now.. dyu remember where it’s ?….. It’s the room in front of our library….
Well, have been really busy drawing the partogram, (it’s a stupid thing in gynaecology), so, I cudn blog for a long time. Newaz, I somehow completed it and submitted it today, and so, have got some time.
Well, we just had a class… an SPM class.. SPM stands for social and preventive medicine.
Now, this is the most boring subject on this planet…. And people who are not doing mbbs (and nursing and also some other stupid medical courses) should thank their stars for not putting them in this mess, where you are forced to study a subject called Community Medicine (another name for SPM)……. This is the only subject that is taught for 3 and ½ years…in First Professional, Second Professional and Third Professional Part A also…The Univ exam is at the end of Third Prof A (that’s the year I’m in now)….
Just to give you an idea of what we learn in SPM.. lemme tell you…
We learn how to disinfect well water, we go to villages and speak to the ‘Community’ and try to find out what the problems of the ‘Community’ are…(more than diseases, it’s how the daughter-in-law troubles the family, how the husband beats the wife, how the children don’t study.. blah blah blah blah blah blah), distribute medicines to the ‘Community’, conduct surveys in the ‘Community’, and at the end contract diseases from the ‘Community’…. (if you haven had chicken pox, and you are told to go to an area that has got a chicken pox epidemic.. what else can you expect?)
Newaz, what I’m tryin to say is that it is the most execrable subject in the MBBS course… and not just me (like, I’m sure you’ll tend to think, if you have read any of my previous posts), but, the whole of the Medical Fraternity is of the same opinion…(and if you come across someone who thinks otherwise, you can very well believe that he/she is not the person you shud go to, in case(God forbid) you fall ill, coz’ such a doctor definitely has some explicit or implicit abnormality in the functioning of his brain…)

But, but, but, but……. Ther is one lady… Dr. Sairu Philip who’s literally magical….(in the way she takes classes, I mean)…. Can you believe that we ACTUALLY listen to her classes?????????? ACTUALLY…
Today, the topic was “Associations and Causation”, the last part of ‘Epidemiology’… very surprisingly, it was an interesting class… (half the credit shud go to maam, the other half to the topic itself), well, so…a little bout wat we learnt….

Well, it’s bout how we tend to make association between the various causes and their effects based on some findings that are true in every sense, yet, are not the real causes…. Such associations are called ‘Spurious associations’ .. an eg… the number of perinatal deaths (deaths around the time of the delivery of the child) per 1000 births in the home deliveries is 5.4, as compared to 27.8 per 1000 births among the deliveries in the hospital…and this, given the fact that the number of births in the hospitals are way more than the births at home…

Hmmm, so, the uneducated people mite end up believing that since the number of delivery deaths in the hospitals are more, better wud be to deliver at home….
Two reasons people can give for the increased deaths in the hospitals are that the aseptic precautions are not really taken care of, and that it’s due to nosocomial infections (hospital-acquired infections, i.e., the infections you acquire from the hospital).
However, in reality the reason is that, the complicated cases are all (usually) brought to the hospital (sometimes the ladies go to docs for chek up, and wen found wid some complications, are admitted in the hospitals… sometimes, wen they don’t visit the docs for chek up… their complications cud manifest (in many ways, that can be omitted here) thus, forcing them to be brought to the hospital), and most of the deaths in the hospital are these complicated cases, those that are brought late, or are simply inadvertent deaths)…
So, we see that if we don’t look into the matter carefully, we cud end up thinking something that is totally wrong….

The second is ‘Indirect Association’.e.g. here is that people who have ‘holes’ in their shirts or pants tend to have lung cancer…. :D… well, it’s actually that people who smoke are in the high risk group for lung cancer, and these people tend to create the ‘holes’ in their clothes by the stub of their cigarettes (now, don’t say no….my own father does it very often, it’s one of the many many reasons of fights between my parents)
Third is ‘Direct Association’ .. that is association between smoking and lung cancer….

Now…… what made me write bout this??? The simple fact that we all tend to be ‘spurious’ in the associations we make….maybe not always, but yes, we do sometimes… we tend to look at what’s visible, and go with it, instead of trying to find out the real reasons…. If only, we use our heads..and not be blinded by what we see and look for the real reason behind things.. our life wud be happier and more fulfilling…. Am not sayin all this without actually practicing it, this is one way in which I keep myself happy, ---- by avoiding ‘spurious associations’… really, it’s one of the best ways to be ‘happy’. Put yourself in the other person’s shoes, and try to reason their actions from their point of views… it may save you from a lot of heart breaks…. Sachi-muchi….:D

Of course, happiness cud have different meanings for different people…. But, this is MY blog, as you all know….. so, the tips of happiness that I give you will only be the ones that I have experienced…:D…. and trust me I’m BASICALLY a happy person….Alhamdulillah… :D

I do feel sad, get angry… and get all screwed up…. But, somehow, these are shorter spells than others wud have faced , had they been in my place….
And the only reason behind it is (besides God, of course) my Zodiac… the lovely lovely Sagittarius…. Not only coz’ we’re optimistic, but also coz’ we are Lady Luck’s favourite :D……

Chalo chalo.. I have to go… Joseph is makin fun of my ‘katha’ (the ‘story’ that I’m typing) :D… more bout Sagis later., gotto take the college bus, there’s a private bus strike today.

P.S- written yesterday

Allah hafiz.

On why I wont attend casualty

2008-10-21T16:41:00.003+05:30

Assalam
No more casualty day 1 day 2 etc…coz I wont be going for casualty, at least not this week…
Firstly, coz’ it gets quite boring in between cases…. And secondly, and most importantly, I’m a lazy ass…..
Well, yeah yeah!! I had written in an earlier post that I really wanted to attend casualty, but, then.. you know jeevan is very uncertain… kab kisse pyaar ho jaaye, kab kisse dushmani, kab kya achha lagne lage, kab kya bura.. we never know!!! :D

{plz excuse me::: I’m finding it very difficult to type today, coz my nails have grown 3mm (approx) beyond the edge….and I’m feeling so irritated….. I never keep long nails, I think its dirty, wrong, and stupid to grow (of all things, that a person can possibly grow) nails!!!! I don’t understand wats actually happened, but until yesterday I felt they cud wait for a few more days.. and today suddenly, I see them 3mm long (it’s really long for a person like me!).. not just my nails, even my waxed hands have suddenly become “bhalu hands”… but newaz, it’s not troubling me like these stupid nails….sad part is that today is a Tuesday and I don’t cut nails on Tuesdays and Saturdays,……….uuuuggggggggggghhhhh!!!!!}

Now my friends are really bothered bout me… I mean, they really want me to attend clinics and learn something so that I can become a decent, if not good, doctor…. Amuda today came up to me and asked what do I do sitting in my hostel all alone (I don’t live in my college hostel, but, in a private one… where I have no batch mates… just a senior, and 1 junior)… I told that I read, sleep, read, chat, read, watch movies, read, blog, and read some more…… and she was like “ haaaaaaaa gr88888…. Almas has come from sooooooooooo faaaaarrrrr away, only to sleep read and chat….”
Somewhere in my heart, I know it’s wrong…coz’ mummy also keeps telling me “thoda padh lo Kiran, itna door tumko sirf padhai ke liye hi to bheje hai, warna humko kya shauk hai tumse door rehne ka”
Hmmmmmmmmmmmm………
:( :( :( :(
Oh mummmmmmmyyyyyyyy plzzzzzzzz don’t speak like that………
Boo hoo …..sob sob ….sniffle sniffle….
But, look now… I have found out many reasons why I should not actually go for casualty….
1. there’s no compulsory attendance…… just the fact that there’s no attendance required speaks a lot bout this thing called casualty…..
2. the cases that come here are all emergency case…. We will never be given emergency cases for our exams….. I mean, use your heads.. we cannot possibly be given such cases…
3. the management of emergency cases are all very well written in all the text books.. all you need to do is read….
You mite say that we need to know what shud be done in “OUR SETUP”, (this is the most common thing people tell you whn they want you to attend clinics), well, the answer (I have come to this conclusion after 4 days in casualty, and l8r confirming it with Dr.Shikha (no, she is not a “BIG” doctor… shez another lazy senior, who has finished her course only 6 months bak)) to this is …. “in OUR SETUP, you refer cases to Kottayam”… yupps that’s what you do…
Head injury…. Refer to Kottayam
Plastic surgery… Refer to Kottayam
And even as common a thing as multiple fractures …. Refer to Kottayam..
(I’m really sorry! I don’t mean to say that multiple fractures is something small or minor..i’m just saying that any medical college ka Ortho Department can deal with it, unless ,of course, the treatment required is available in select places or too unconventional….(and no, I haven’t created anything, such cases have ACTUALLY been referred to Kottayam by the SURGEONS , not the housies…ok))
4. the few things that are taught, usually go a bouncer.. coz’ majority of us have a weak base… we don’t know our Anatomy, Physio and Patho properly and so, whatever the docs say, don’t make much sense to us… for correcting this, we need to first sit down and get our initial 7 subjects straight.(ok, make it 6- you don’t need forensic utna bhi zyada) .
5. Anju and Aish were telling me yesterday, that if we go to the casualty, seniors (meaning the housies posted in casualty) tell us what is needed to be studied… but, I think it’s really stupid.. I mean, don’t we all know that everything is needed… the more you study, the better.. tomorrow if you are practicing, you get a case that your ‘senior’ hadn mentioned, will you send the patient back??? I mean, how sillier can you get?? (that’s the prime reason why I don’t get good marks… I find it very difficult to study selections.. it’s like one topic from here and another from there.. that kinds… it is a total rattu process.. hope you know the meaning of ‘rattu’ .. it means learning things by heart…. And to be able to really read, understand and learn.. you need a lot of time and you shud start from day 1 of mbbs and never turn bak… something I never cud do coz’ of the ‘home sickness’ I went thru….)
6. suturing, catheterization etc. are things you need to learn during casualty, I agree… but, tell me if I don’t learn now, will the docs refuse to teach me wen I becum a housie? Will they? Damn it!!! No, they can never refuse.. coz’ they too know it, that it’s the housies who actually run the Alpy Hospital…there is no escaping from the work load during house surgeoncy.. you like it or not.. you know how to or not… you HAVE TO bloody work like an ass!! And you will be scolded, maybe even insulted… for all sort of things, whether you do things perfectly or not…. So no point in wasting your beautiful 4th year, wen newaz you will have to learn it as a housie…
7. wen we were internees… in the labour room, we assisted deliveries…. Had you learnt it beforehand ? ….no.. you hadn… you just stepped into the labour room, with your gloves and gown on… and there you were supporting the head of the baby, holding the instruments, holding the suture material… you were told just once…..the first time, and after that you cud do!!! And after learning, did you never go wrong? Were you never scolded for not holding the sutures in the right way, ….. did you never touch anything unsterile with sterile gloves on?

As internees, are we taught to take deliveries, given the fact that anyways we wud need to do it as housies? No! in fact there are teachers who, if they come to know that any housie or pg tried to teach an internee this beautiful job of takin deliveries, can throw you out of the labour room like a fly is thrown out of a glass of milk….. and if you think we can learn to take deliveries and suture episiotomies so soon, what makes you feel that we wudn be able to catheterize or suture injuries…. ????????? ha???? Tell me tell me… aaj to bol hi do!! :D

So you see…. There’s really no need to attend casualty…:
Be confident and optimistic… inshaAllah we will learn it all as housies :D

Aur waise bhi.. the real time a doctor learns is wen he prepares for PG, coz then he has finished his entire course….he knows a little of everything and so when he reads it again, it seems more coherent thatn when he had read the same thing in 1st year, or 2nd-3rd year….

My suggestion.. try to read as much as possible (well , I mean text books)… coz’
Eyes do not see………….
……………… What the mind does not know…..

AllahHafiz

Casualty -day 5

2008-10-17T19:24:00.001+05:30

Assalam
hmmm . . Didnt go for the morning casualty, there were no afternoon classes. . . And again didnt attend the evening casualty. . . :)
but, i had gone yesterday. . . Though i didnt really want to. . But got so bugged that went to the duty H.S room and was simply lyin down , listenin songs. . . . Went to have dinner, then returned in the ambulance. . . A real waste of time. . . Two cases :>
1. A police case, a man brought a severely injured patient. . . And was ready to sign the permission form, though they weren related in any way. . . .we thot. . . Wow, aaj ke duniya me aisa aadmi. . . .
huh! L8r cm to knw dat dey were relatd alrite, he jst din wana tel he's related to a man involvd in a police case. . . .
2. An unconscious man, tight on daaru was brought by a boy, and this boy wasnt willing to give any signature wagairah.. He SAHI MEI wasnt related to the patient, he told , he brought the patient here so that he could be saved, thats all, he wasnt interested in doin any more. . He had done enough. . . :) lolz. . . Wow aaj ke duniya mei itna bhi mil jaae to gr8 hai. . :)
tc
Allah hafiz

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Casualty - day 4

2008-10-16T13:32:00.000+05:30

Assalam
i didnt go for the mornin casualty, am waitin for the afternoon class to start. . . . And thinking if i really shud go for the evening casualty or not . . . . I got up at 11. 30. . . . Slept at 4.30 . . . Was watching the stuff azhu sent . . . . 1920 is so scary . . . (In jalpari) will edit , l8r, if i go . . . . Newaz. . . . Am sleepy . . .
Allah hafiz

Casualty-day 3

2008-10-16T13:18:00.000+05:30

Assalam
i didnt go to the morning casualty, there were no afternoon classes, and i didnt go to the evening casualty as well. . . . . Instead, i went to maheshwari and bought a wrap-around . . . . I returned in the ambulance. . . . I had taken the coat so that when i reach back at 9pm . . . . The sisters see that i am returning from the hospital all rite. . . . ;) I have told the warden sister that i will be returning at 9 for a month. . . . Wow! !
Allah hafiz

casualty - day 2

2008-10-14T17:44:00.000+05:30

Assalam
…. Today is a BJP hartaal, no classes, didn’t go for the morning casualty, don’t know if I will go in the evening….mummy has told not to….Kerala State Transport is running, but still, mummy dsnt want me to take any risk…. Other gals are all day sholars ( I mean the real ones.. I am pseudo)….. lets see….

no, i dint go for the evening shift as well.

Allah hafiz.

My Malayalam Disaster !!!

2008-10-14T17:28:00.001+05:30

Assalam
This happened during the staff registration at the 3D Indiana demo….

I committed the sin of not recognizing the HOD Anatomy and so, when I asked him for his ‘designation’ ….
He told “anatomy”
Now I found it really awkward to ask him exactly what in antomy?... of course, he didn’t himself fill all the posts in the Anatomy department…. Uggh!!
“HOD” he told.
Fine I thot…
Suddenly I heard Anisa say, “She’s in 4th year”
Apparently, Dr.HOD had asked me something in Malayalam, which I didn’t hear coz’ my “Malayalam Antennae” were switched off…
And then ….. Dr. HOD starts speaking in Malayalam and I look at him, he speaks and I look at him, he speaks and I look, with my “Malayalam Antennae” switched on, but, as always happens with me in emergency situations, failing to catch the signals properly…
From the corner of my eye I see Anisa standing up, I stand up too….
From the corner of my eye I see Anisa smiling, I smile too..
From the corner of my eye I see Anisa nodding her head sheepishly, I nod too, trying to be sheepish, coz’ fuck man! I don’t even know what’s happening and all my Malayalam knowledge has deserted me…
I understand one word here and one word there, all of which when put together make no sense to me!
Finally, when Sir leaves, I turn to Anisa with one of my ‘what-the-fuck?’ looks and she says with an ‘oh-the-fuck!’ look (the difference in the two looks being the punctuation marks that are painted across our faces:D) that he had asked me (at the beginning of this Malayalam disaster) if I didn’t know him… and since Ani was quick to realize that I haven’t heard the question.. she had replied that I was in 4th year.. ( and so, I didn’t know the HOD of a first year subject)
But, probably the Dr. had felt bad and so, he went on to explain ALL that he was…. This and that and that and this.. he had started so and so, was the founder of so and so.. etc. etc.. (to which all that standing, smiling and nodding were done).. In short, what he meant was that he was THE H.O.D. ANATOMY OF ALLAPPUZHA MEDICAL COLLEGE and we , disgusting, deplorable, crappish 4th years, didn’t know who HE was, HE, the HOD of a subject we cleared in 2006 , a subject we studied under 2 HODs (like most of our non clinical subjects, coz’ no one wants to work in Alpy)….………..
Huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, I think safer wud be to go to the Academic Section once a week and get updated bout the transfers and appointments and retirements that happen in the VARIOUS departments.. steal a pic of all the teachers, and write their names below it and paste it on my wall and luk at them every morning, just so that, if in future I ever meet a doctor , I don’t commit the unforgivable sin of not recognizing him/her……………
Allah hafiz.

3D Indiana

2008-10-14T17:19:00.002+05:30

Assalam
We had the 3D Indiana demonstration in our audi today… I had been seeing its posters in the college but, had thot it’s bout some textbook… newaz, today I came to know that it is bout some software developed by a certain Dr. Jerome Kalister and his team…. It’s some software that can help us study anatomy better… presents the human body in 3D with all inner structures perfectly shown, etc… the good part was that this was the first time such a detailed thing of anatomy had been developed in India, and that too by a Keralite ( going with the way my obsession for Kerala is increasing, there’s no surprise how excited I got hearing a Kerala achievement!!:D)………… but, but, but… the real thing remains…. This Keralite is not just a Dr. from some college………….. but the best college on this planet “Alleppey Medical College” :D :D :D :D :D :D……….. so, in no way was I goin to miss this…
When Ani and I reached the college Ansar, the King, :D, gave her the work to fold some pamphlets for Intermedicos ( we are hosting the Intermeds this year, probably in the last week of November…….my b’day will go un noticed :( sob! Sob! ) and soon she was given the work for staff registration, in which I helped her… I committed the sin of not recognizing the HOD Anatomy, and bout this incident I shall mention l8r, prolly in another post.

It had been organized by the Kalister Foundation, all the 1st year students and staff from Calicut, Trivandrum, Thrissur and Kottayam along with Alleppey Medical College, all staff and students were invited…. We were given snacks :D :D :D .. from The Oven, Kochi… :D :D lolz…
Newaz after the registration, we went for the demo….
Twas really good….
It shows a male body, which can be viewed from all sides (its 3D, I dunno why am I being so stupid) we can focus on any part of the body (unlike many other softwares, and cds, which offer parts of body sectioned according to their preference…) hide and unhide the structures, the veins, arteries, nerves, muscles one by one…. We can just make the muscles transparent, without hiding them, enabling us to see how structures behind them pass….and all those stupid relations…
It’s a beautiful and detailed body.. we were shown only the upper limb, coz, if I didn’t get it wrong, he told that it is a 1500 GB stuff!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe I heard it wrong…. I don know.. will ask someone l8r and confirm… Azhar isn’t willing to believe it’s so big!!

Well, whatevs,, all things said, Dr.Shenoy, the famous researcher doctor working even after his retirement, told something that really made sense.. that to be able to study anatomy with this program or whatev it is called, we need to be really good at computers and first master the various applications of this software… will all the teachers be able to learn it? (coz’ for sure it showed, the person sittin at the computer today wasn’t able to do it well, and that really brought down the quality of the demo!!) besides we shudn neglect the fact that anatomy isn’t easy, and people take time to learn things… and benefiting from these presentations wud mean the children shud come to class after they have studied the content, this in addition to the other 2 subjects plus the record writing, seminars etc etc…
I personally feel it will be good for presentations and seminars but how much can it help us in studies, I aint that sure….i mean suppose it IS the mind wobbling 1500 GB, how can ne1 have access to it if he needs to see stuff in the hostel or at home, while studying???hmmmmmmm…
It is proposed to be gven to all the medical colleges (govt) in kerala, not sure of India. And if I heard right , they will be including many other things like physiology and pharmacology into this anatomy thingie! (I’m not sure of what they really meant, but, surely they did mean something:D)
Then Dr. Krishnamma, our first year external and Dr. Jerome’s teacher in his first year.. went up to the dais to speak.. she was all praises for him… which he rightly deserves….
Something Kerala and esp our college shud be really proud of… btw I heard that he completed his MBBS in a very long time coz, he had gone to do other stuff has even won some national level awards in something I didn’t understand… Dr.Sukumaran, our Surgery HOD was his immediate senior, but due to his lag….he was still a student of Surgery when Dr. Sukumaran had already started teaching in Alpy….
Newaz..nothing goes waste…. Even though he took many many years to finish his course..isn’t he bigger than many whom we call ‘bhujis’..
A hearty congrats to Dr. Jerome and his team.

P.S- I have written as if it happened today, though it was actually yesterday… am sorry for that.
P.S 2- Cudn upload pics on blogger,:((

Allah hafiz

Casualty Day 1

2008-10-14T16:18:00.002+05:30

Assalam
Yesterday was day 1 of Casualty posting… It’s actually supposed to be ‘Surgery Casualty’, but, 90th Batch had decided to attend both Medicine and Surgery… so the previous batches (B, C) used to go to Medicine in the morning and Surgery in the evenings… We had thot of doing the same…
Now, just to explain wat’s the hype bout Casualty .. it is a posting in the Emergency Medicine, as some people call it…(there’s no attendance required, and you can come to the casualty to learn things even when you are in the first year (provided you understand anything so early in the course)) people tell (and I hope what they tell is true) that this is a good chance to learn…. Probably coz’……. Welllll, ummmmmmmmmmmmmm .. hhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I don know why it’s said to be a good time to LEARN, I personally believe it’s just something that can make you strong mentally in that you know how to react, how to get on your feet and start working when someone is brought with a bleeding head, with the relatives crying and blood, blood, blood everywhere…… it’s just an advanced training given to make us the most cold-hearted group of people on this planet…..
{ rite now im listening to 1 of my most fav songs.. maname manmizhiyale, Malayalam dubbing of a telugu song  this is just a too beautiful song… though I don understand the words much….. I like the video, the film, the actors, and the music… }

Ok… so, we were supposed to go to Medicine casualty at 9 am, but, I got a mesaage telling that we r goin to surgery, coz’ we have got to meet Dr. Sukumaran, our surgery HOD, just informin him that we r joining casualty from that day…….. so, we went to the department , saw Sir, and without even asking us who, what, why bout nething, he told us to meet Dr. Anilkumar……. Then began our treasure hunt , the treasure being a certain Dr. Anilkumar, bout whom we know nothing………….. a tresure hunt in which we didn’t succeed, and so with a heavy heart we went to the OP and told Sir that all we wanted was to inform him that we r joining…… His reply was “This is the O.P” all the other docs started laughing…. Aish repeated .. “Sir, we begin our casualty posting from today” …….. Sir repeated “ This is the O.P” and again the Gods of surgery started laughing at the mere mortals standing before them………. Thanx for the ‘chori’…we smiled………..knowing that 2 months of intensive chori has started ….:D (our posting after casualty is Surgery) newaz.. we went to the casualty, but, as was expected, there were no cases,so, we thot of returning……
(now, this is the time the other gals were chatting bout the 3D Indiana thing, bout which I will write l8r)
Bt, then we remembered that Aish and Anju had to give us a treat for getting a distinction in 2nd Prof examz…… we went to Ice Mist, I had a fruit salad…. Pista scoop. :D… then Anisa and I went to the college.. others went home….

The evening casualty started at 6 for me, coz I returned late from the 3D Indiana thingie…. Others had gone at 4.30..

There was a lady there, bleeding from the nose and ears… she had met with an accident, bike accident, her school- going son was riding the bike….. it was more painful to see the boy, than the lady…. He was in his uniform, really tall, but, his face showed that he was actually very young…. He was crying. Not like shouting and beating his chest, but, caressing his mom’s head and shedding silent tears…..we cud all make out what he felt at that time… that he was responsible for his mom’s condition…. But, soon the lady, Zeenath, was taken away…

The next case we saw was of a boy, 15 yrs of age, in the 7th standard, who entered limping and holding his head and wincing with pain….. twas a case of assault and there were policemen…. Apparently, the boy had gone out to buy books and was assaulted by a gang of boys….. possibly this boy was in some panga with the boys who attacked him… we feel for the patient, but, we never know how good or bad a person the patient is… I don’t mean anyone deserves to be injured, all I mean is that perhaps, he walked into the lion’s den himself.. we can never be sure….. newaz…. He had a bleeding injury on his head, a fracture too I think, though I aint sure.. and a bandage around his right hand… when it was removed, we saw the thumb hanging, attached to the rest of the body to which it rightly belonged, by a thin piece of skin….a fresh bandage was wrapped, fluid started and he was sent for getin an x-ray done…

Then, there came a lady with a blood sugar of 272, diabetic ulcer foot (2nd toe)gangreneous…, strangely, the son told that this ulcer started 2 weeks back….probably they didn’t like her 2nd toe and so just sat happily at home seeing the ulcer go from bad to worse… God !!!!! newaz… it had to be amputated!

Then the doc who is a gr8 example of a person who’s got a magetic personality ( his name slips from my memory--- it’s one of those typical kerala names like jojo, mojo, sijju, biju, bini, chiny, tinu, minu,pinchu, tinchu, bibu, libu) started asking us bout ‘ diabetic foot’….

Zeenath, the lady I spoke of earlier, returned, and had projectile vomiting. She had been taken away for a CT Scan…there was a sub-arachnoid haemorrhage and cerebral oedema . if, a surgery is needed, she will have to be referred to Kottayam Medical College Hospital coz Alleppey MCH cant deal with it (pathetic!!!), the sadder part is that just to know if a surgery is needed or not, we have to wait for the neurosurgeon, who was telling us how to read a CT a few minutes ago, but, now has gone somewhere ( and we cant call him coz’ of some reason which my bleak knowledge of Malayalam didn’t allow me to understand, and I didn’t get the time to ask someone to translate) . and Alpy has only one neurosurgeon, coz of the Alpy phobia, due to which docs from other places don’t like workin here… or whatev be the reason, I dunno ,…………the surgeons told her husband that’s it’s serious definitely, but we can’t do anything until the NEUROsurgeon arrives,………. However, she cud be taken to Kottayam rite away… coz newaz , possibly, she’d have to be taken to KMC hospital newaz………
They left for Ktym widin minutes…

Sir continued askin us all that we didn’t know… and it was getting late.. we had to return by the 8.30pm ambulance…. He went on and on and on, asking us questions which soon turned into homework (that we r supposed to know by today) coz’ we cudn answer any….
Finally he told, “So, you agree that you don’t know anything bout diabetic foot ?”
We nodded
“You agree that you didn’t study anything in your previous posting?”
Nod nod nod nod……Ha mere bhai,... we agree!!!
“You agree that you are absolutely nil in your basics?”
A nod with a sweet smile hiding the grinding of our teeth inside….
Ugggggggggghhhhhh
…… I was like “cut the crap out man! You win, we lose! You are a surgeon and we undergraduate shits! You the zenith and we the zilch! We are defeated, fallen flat on the face… you can sleep peacefully>>>>>>>> you have done your work…. Now, please ……….. it’s 8.20, can we leave?” of course…. All this told in my heart…
Well, the Surgeon Janaab was merciful enuf to let us go……..

Sad part… no ambulance!!! We waited for a long time with four locals lookin at us like they are seeing the creations called “females” for the first time in their lives…. Crap!!
At last,Anju anna, Elizabeth chechi and another chechi (who reminds me of Dr. Pragya Gautham, uh! And whose name neither anju nor I knew, both chehis from 88th ), returned by a Fast Passenger…..

A busy day……………..
Sad part wasn’t the cases I saw, bt, the fact that we (medical people) can actually laugh and think of other things standing in a room where people are crying thinking of life and death……………..well, how much emotions can be allowed in our profession, I don’t know…. What I know is that, no one becomes a doc to SERVE humanity… though we r treated as animals by the govt.), we all are here for reasons far from SERVICE……. This is the way we earn our bread and butter…. and if we need to think, we need to stop feeling, for that moment at least………. We can’t stop living……

Allah hafiz

Dermatology text book- Illustrated Synopsis of Dermatology & Sexually Transmitted Diseases

2008-10-11T01:55:00.002+05:30

Assalam
This post is specially to tell about the text book “Illustrated Synopsis of Dermatology and Sexually Transmitted Diseases” by “Neena Khanna”

This is one sexy text book… All the important points are covered, but still the book isn’t lengthy… it doesn’t go too deep into each topic, nor does it just-brushes-through. This combined with a little bit of Robbins will be more than enuf ( I think) if you going to practice as a General Physician or if you come across a Dermat case in your family, friends, or if you are in any other speciality….
The book also has some really clean pictures, that again, I would say, are sufficient to understand, going by the fact that you don’t necessarily understand the difference among all the lesions that you see during clinics ( I seriously believe that we shud be allowed to take pics of the cases that we see during clinics, coz’ it’s always better to be able to remind yourself of what YOU actually saw instead of what the books say or show, besides, normal students like me who don’t have a photocopy memory, tend to forget the way lesions looked…. Plus … 23 students( in rare cases of full attendance) crowding into one small OP doesn’t leave much space for every single student to examine the case to their hearts content, besides, patients are humans…. Doctors shudn ever forget.)
Newaz..
So, my point is that this is a really nice book for Skin ( of course, you need to study it, if you want it to be of any use)…. I have the 2nd edition..that’s the latest…
Happy Studying :D
Allah hafiz

Dermatology in 6th semester

2008-10-11T01:44:00.001+05:30

Assalam
Skin is over. Twas a really good posting (though I didn’t attend a handsome part of it :D)
But, still I liked the classes I did attend…in fact, I feel it’s a really good option for PG and even otherwise, if you practice as a physician or even if you are in any other speciality, you wud need to know Skin well, since it’s a very common presenting complaint. It was only after this Skin posting that I realized that all the really really common infections we come across like Insect Bite Reaction, head louse infestation , generalized itching, acne, hairfall etc. etc. are all included in this field..
Maam was telling that we shud pay attention to Skin (and every clinical posting, for that matter) coz’ as doctors, we shud be able to atleast prescribe basic medicines for all conditions… and even if we cannot treat, we shud be atleast in a state to be able to describe the lesions in a decent manner at the time of giving referrals….( she mentioned how, many house surgeons posted in Medicine refer patients to Skin describing the lesions as simply “ITCHY LESION” instead of the accorded method of description :D)
I hadn’t attended any more than 3 days during my 3rd year Skin ( this was because I was depressed due to a certain incident which, I think, deserves a separate post) and so cudn benefit much that time either…. But, I must say, I liked skin a lot…
Today(well, actually, yesterday!) was the end posting bout which I have mentioned in the post that I took from another blog of mine, Jalpari.
Here are the questions…

Dermatology End-Posting
Total Marks= 50, Time Allotted = 1 hr.

I MCQs
1. “Leonine facies” is seen in
(a) HDTT (b)HDBT (c)HDBB (d)HDLL
2. Antigen presenting cells of skin are
(a) Langerhan’s cell (b) Keratinocyte (c) Melanocyte (d) Merkel cell
3. Target lesions are seen in
(a) Pemphigus (b) Lichen planus (c) Erythema multiforme (d) Psoriasis
4. “Herald Patch” is seen in
(a) Lichen planus (b) Pityriasis alba (c) Psoriasis (d) Pityriasis rosea
5. The most specific histopathological finding in chromoblastomycosis is
(a) Asteroid bodies (b) Sclerotic bodies (c) Sulphur granules (d) Schauman bodies
6. The most commonly associated HLA in psoriasis is
(a) HLA B27 (b) HLA B8 (c) HLA DR3 (d) HLA CW6
7. Acantholytic cells are seen in
(a) Pemphigus (b) Bullous Pemphigoid (c) Dermatitis herpetiformis (d) Eczemas
8. Koilocytes are seen in
(a) Molluscum contagiosum (b) Verruca vulgaris (c) Impetigo (d) Cow pox
9. Diagnostic lesion in scabies is
(a) Papule (b) Vesicle (c) Burrow (d) Nodule
10. Myiasis is caused by larva of
(a) mosquito (b) hookworm (c) sarcoptes scabiei (d) house fly
{1x10=10}

II Short Notes
1. Classify Hansens Disease and briefly describe BT
2. Lepra Reactions
3. Treatment of Psoriasis
4. Dermatophytosis
5. Pityriasis rosea
6. Condyloma acuminate
7. Urticaria
8. Pemphigus vulgaris
{8x5=40}

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
That’s all for this post
Allah hafiz

Just Another Day

2008-10-11T01:32:00.003+05:30

Assalam
So, where do I begin?... I’m again stuffed up with things to write… ok …one at a time…lemme first write bout today…
Nothing really eventful…bas kuchh things yaha and kuchh things waha..
1. Had my Skin end posting exam today (it’s supposed to be a test at the end of
all clinical postings (though only few departments actually conduct it) to judge how much the future doctors have learnt ( or not learnt :D) bout identifying and treating diseases.) I hadn’t studied, as usual, and so the paper wasn’t good… though I wrote two short notes really well.. both were on leprosy… had been studying that yesterday :) … ( I shall be posting the questions in Confrontation since I fear I will lose the questions)…..
since, puja holidays are going on, most of the students didn’t attend the one lone class today, and that too for a test!!! Huh!!! We were only 9 out of 23 students (only one boy). Newaz, after the test, we went to meet the teachers and say them tatas, coz’ probably we won’t see them again… ( there’s no Dermatology posting next year and even in House Surgeoncy, it’s an optional one). More bout skin in CoNfRoNtAtIoN.

2. I walked back to college from Neerkunnam (that’s the place where we have
our new sexy hospital, … only very few departments have been shifted as of now, the rest still remaining in Alleppey Town), got my eyebrows done from Twinkle, then went to the library, and sat in the reading room, doing what??? Orkutting.. what else? Now, Gauthaman chettan was sitting there preparing for PG entrance, with that Medicine book (Mudit Khanna or Ashish Gupta, whichev, am not sure of the author) and Harrison’s (a PG level text book which all the doctors will recommend you during your undergraduation, but, please don’t bother if you are not among them whom we call “insanely padhakoo” ok??). Just then, Anisa pops in her head from the door, and seeing me sitting there starts off with her fantastic Hindi…. Now, just as a bit of useless information, Anisa and I have named the “Reading Room”( a room just in front of the Library where you can bring your own books and read, even chat with your friends, have your lunch, charge your mobiles, have postings (I mean the galfrnd boyfrnd posting :D) have informal Union meetings, sleep, sit, walk, disturb others, etc., etc… it’s also called “Day-Schys’ Room”) ---- DAVIDSON (after a medicine text (UGlevel)) and the library’s magazine section HARRISON (the PG text bout which I mentioned above)…actually this started as a sarcastic way of teasing me coz’ these are the only two places in the library where you can find me, but, never in that part of the library which actually deals with Medical books, so, Anisa says “Oh… you are going to the library?????????? To study HARRISON or DAVIDSON??????????? !!!!!!!!!!!!” that kinds!!!!
Newaz, so today too… we strted talking bout whether or not we should study Harrison ( meaning should we go in and read magazines), she kept telling that she doesn’t want to and I kept telling ‘ are nahi, chalo na, padhenge’
Now, the problem here is that------ Gauthaman chettan could have felt that we were chorifying him as he was sitting just opposite to us and reading HARRISON(the real text, not our magazines) ( chhedofying (Hinglish), teasing/mocking at (English), chorifying is Manglish… literally translated to English, it’d mean “scratching” :D). coz’ coz’ coz’ he has just written his final year papers, the results are not yet out, people wud be enjoying their last holidays in the Medical profession, but he was ACTUALLY screwing it up by studying and that too not in the comforts of home, but, in those stiff DAVIDSON chairs instead!!!!!!!! Ughhhhhhh….. we didn’t think of all this at that point but, l8r, sitting in HARRISON we realized that chettan cud have actually taken offence, and can bring out his ‘krodh’ l8r… besides, if he HAS taken offence, he mite just say others that 2 junior gals were chorifying him………… and then…………. It wud be a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiggggggggggggggggggggg issue…..
Newaz, nothing can be done now…. Lets c…. :(
3. The weather here is really bad today…. It’s so damn hot that even the fan
seems to be circulating air that’s as hot as the air from the back of an air conditioner…not just hot, it’s extremely humid today… I’m feeling like I’ve just had a bath with steaming hot fevicol….
Dyu remember that Fevistik ad which goes “chip chip chip chip chip chip chip chip”? just like that……….

This post has already khichofied so much…I better end it here.
P.S. this will also be posted in Confrontation
Allah hafiz

my postings now

2008-09-07T16:03:00.000+05:30

Assalam
Wanted to write a lot last night but, tabhi current chala gaya….so, now, trying to recall all that was flowing into my mind last nite…
Its Ramzan, today is the 7th here in Kerala, at home it’s the 6th. Time really does fly… Isn’t it?....hmmm.
As usually happens in Ramzan with me.. I have become a nocturnal…awake till sehri and waking up just before zohar…. That’s why I have been missing my clinics for the past one week… waise to my time table got upset during the internment….(will mention bout it in confrontation), fir bhi there wud have been hope of getting it right, had it not been for Ramzan….newaz… thankfully, had Orthopaedics.. so cud afford to miss it.. I mean the attendance is not a problem… its needed only if we have a shortage in surgery…. And waise bhi .. even if we don’t go, friends mark everyone present… however, from the academic point of view, its been a loss.. coz.. there is no ortho posting next year.. only a 15 days revision posting….now, the next one is skin.. they say.. and I really pray it’s skin.. coz , here we need to reach at 9am ,…..if its surgery… uugggggggghhhhhhhh
We’ll have to be on time.. and return only by the 12.10 bus.. and sometimes even later….
8 days ka Onam hols have started today…( do I hear a voice saying Kerala Univ has gone mad???????/ wat?????? Its not your voice????? :-o well, then, perhaps its my heart :D ) I really wanted to go home… wud hav cut 2 weeks from skin… wud hav been at home for Eid.. but then cash ka problem hai.. had been home in July…ab within 2 months again itna kharcha……hmmmmmmmmmm……….. but, I don’t know if aisa mauka milega ki nahi… coz final year me to newaz ghar nahi jaa sakenge… 4th year ke last postings bhi I cannot cut…surgery bhi I cannot cut, casualty I can cut.. but.. don want to.. dekhte hai.. shayad medicine udayenge… par waha attendance ka chakkar padega….
Khair….

{now, when I look at what I have written, I guess I will be posting it in confrontation :D}

To.. here I am in the gr8 Alleppey City… eating stale food for sehri and super expensive food for iftar…..
Why super expensive???????/ again due to that internment syndrome….i got so used to eating from out that I just cant eat from the mess anymore… and esp in Ramzan, (which, in my opinion, is the biggest festival of Muslims), I just can’t it the garbage they cook (Allah forgive me)…..

{no, I will post it in Jalpari :D}

By the way… aaj Azhar ka convocation hai… and guess who is the chief guest?????????? Its Abhinav Bindra.. the one who got India her first solo gold in the Olympics…….

{ok, I will post it in both :D}
Newaz
Allah Hafiz

2008-09-07T16:01:00.000+05:30

2008-06-27T15:33:00.003+05:30

Assalam
Long time…..
Well had my examz…yupp…the univs.. soooooooo, shall we start from the start?
Okis..
So as we all know.. almas is not all that studious a girl, ehmm, alrite… almas is not at all a studious girl….even if God comes down from the heavens and stops the world to give her time to study….she studies only the day b4 she has her papers…isliye, as usual.. the day b4 Pathology paper I, she was going crazy with portions remaining to be covered… the worst part was that this paper was the one she was confident bout…… didn’t get me???? Well, I mean if a person is goin crazy b4 the only paper she is confident bout.. you can very well imagine how much she’d be apprehensive bout those she was not confident bout… newaz…she somehow rushed thru some topics from here and from there….and then revised Robbins (the most beautiful textbook on this planet, which every medico shud shud and shud read…) and went to kick start her 2nd Professional MBBS Degree Examination…
I wudn go thru all the details of the paper, just a few things..
1- essay was ??????????? Meningitis????????.
2- didn’t know most of the mcqs… didn’t realize that she can atleast try to cheat…
3-baaki alhamdulillah was okis..
Now, for the paper II she had 2 days.. on the first day.. the chapters she covered were………………………………………………………………………………………….Liver. yupps.. that’s all. Liver..rest all were just skimmed thru the next day, and on the morn of the xam….however, paper was Alhamdulillah ok. Essay- malignant melanoma…
Micro I was as tight as the laws of science can allow something to get tight…1 day leave and all the keetaanu in the world…newaz, somehow that too got over..essay was????????Tonsilitis?????
Paper Alhamdulillah okis….
Now, the real twist was Micro II, coz almas had never expected this paper to get tight, but, keeping up with the tradition all subjects in almas’s life seem to be following, it did….and she was all screwed up….parasitology to na ke barabar padha…
Essay was????????polio???????? paper Alhamdulillah okis…
And then…. 2 days leave for the terror of all terrors in the world…. Pharmac I…ufffffffffff…. Screwed wud be too mild a word to describe almas ka condition on that day….. she didn’t touch some chronic essay topics… and those she did were reluctant to remain seated in her memory…. She begged the aas paas wala bachas to help her….. essay was Hypolipidemic drugs… and all mcqs obtained from neighbors… :D Paper was Alhamdulillah okis… then was Paper II, jiske bare mein jitna kamti bola jaaye, utna behtar… almas left macrolides, aminoglycosides, cephalosporins, antihelminths, antifungals, antiprotozoals, antiviral, antineoplastics…. In short, she committed a chhota mota suicide…but, you know they say.. jab Allah meherban to gadha pehelwan…:D…. Essay was Peptic Ulcer… and with some help from here and some help from there… paper was Alhamdulillah okis..
Now, sirf forensic remained… almas ka 2nd favourite subject… after patho……
But…. Almas is very haq pasand, she treats every subject equally, whether she likes it or not.. so…. She lingered on with some topics and on the eve of the paper at around 7pm she had finished 4 cahpters… and around 8 pm.. she got a cal frm anisa (whoz she??? :D) the khabar was that something has gone wrong somewhere (my preps probably :D), and so the next day wud be a strike… xam date to be told l8r… and then…some were happy, some were sad…. Almas too had mixed feelings.. coz you know… she is a damn superstitious gal (sadly, for a Muslim ) and she wears the same dress thru out her papers (don’t wory, she washes it regularly), dsnt get her eyebrows done, dsnt listem to songs and blah blah….she was so happy that she’d be free the next day…but, it wasn’t to be…
The xam was postponed by 4 days… and Almas , as is expected of her… started wid her jhingalala hu hu hu hu hu hu … and got busy orkutting until suddenly one day she realized that hey…….. xam to kal hai..
And so, almas, who besides being superstitious, is also reeeeaaalllyyy traditional…. Didn’t let others down and kept her word of getting screwed in the last day… left some very important topics but wat are a few imp topics in front of the gr8 suicide attempt made on pharmacy II????/ huh… so our darling Almas went for her paper… and as is her usual habit.. read a silent prayer.. wrote 786 in the tiniest handwriting at the top of all answer sheets , took the question paper, again wrote 786 ( big and bold.. whu can stop me here. Huh??????????) and then her name…Almas Shamim (she somehow believes it to be toooo lucky, it’d seem ok to you if you knew how big a narcissist she is)…and fatafat turned to the next page------------- essay- Drowning….
Glory be to Allah, The Lord of the heavens and the earth and all else that exists…………
Paper was Alhamdulillah okis…………..and that brings us to the next stage… waiting for practicals….(yupp, have pracs b4 clinics……..such a waste of time..KU batches already lagging by 4-5 months).. and now again Almas has engrossed herself over the net…………… waiting for the last day to arrive so that she may start studying… there’s such a lot…………… :D

Now, to be on the safe side.. lemme tell you that the pavam gal has given her best to it ….if something goes wrong…. Remember…
Allah says: “ wa ta izzo mantashao wa ta zillo mantashao” …” hum jise chahe izzat de, jise chahe zillat de”
Okis??????????
Chalos… tatas
Allah hafiz

Halat tight hai. . , !!!!

2008-05-19T12:48:00.000+05:30

Assalam
yaar. . Am totally screwed. . . Not goin to chennai. . Gettin so damn sacred now. . . Waise to . . . Jo hoga achha hoga. . . Still yaar. . . Tension to hoga na? Now tomorrow have got forensic paper. . . Going too slow. . .Too slow matlab too slow yaar. . . Khair , ye to apna hamesha ka story hai. . . . There is such a lot to write in JaLpArI but time ka dearth hai. . . .What to do.?

newaz. . . Will come again. . .But probably in JaLpArI . . . Lots of stuff remain to be written there. . .

new decision. . Taken at this very instant. . .From now on. . . Breaks me. . No orkutting . . :) instead. . .Blogging . . . Better managememt of time.:-)

chal chal . . Time waste nai karne ka. .

allah hafiz

Dr. Ramani scolded me. . For good. .

2008-05-11T08:51:00.000+05:30

Assalam
during my pharmac practical. . . Dr. Ramani scolded me . . Tellin that all the other students have improved, only i haven . . They have kept papers, given selections. . .Everything they possibly could. . . Still if the student doesnt work hard. . . No use of it all. . .True maam.. . Am sorry for that. . . Will try to work hard. .And she told me to study 10-12 hours in a day {well well well } and write whatever i study. . . Will help me to remember. . . InshaAllah. . . I will try. . .

during all the discussions and even for viva . . Everyone wanted Dr. Manju . . Coz she is so nice. . .But i didnt. . .Coz she is so nice. . . I mean. . I couldn face her. . . The HOD has just given orders yaar . . .Its basically maam who has taught us. . .Worked so hard at us. . . I just couldn go back to her not knowin anythin. . . I mean who would believe that i forget everything. . . Newaz. . . Thankfully i got the HOD for everything. . .She scolded me , but its k. . .
i feel i have cheated manju maam. . . :-( gotto study. . Post my intro later. . .
Allah bless us all. . .aur mere ko dusro se thoda zyada. . :-)
aameen
allah hafiz. .

Well. . . At last . . Final sessionals are over. . .

2008-05-11T08:32:00.000+05:30

Assalam. .
my final sessionals got over day before. . . I stayed in the college hostel on the last day. . .Rest in JaLpArI . . Here only bout the great mbbs course. . .Well. . .My exams went too bad. . As i told. . I don remember anything. . Have failed badly. . .Newaz. . .Universities are postponed. . .To 6th june. . . So , there is still time. . . May Allah help me out. . .And no , am not going home. . . Many reasons. . 1. I have to study, wont do that at home. . .2.the forensic medicine paper is on 20th. . I need it badly. . It is for those fools who didnt get good marks. . .Its a chance for them to increase their average. . . 3.when i return , i ll be in a massive hangover. . No way will i be able study. . 4. I will ask mummy to give me the braces for my teeth, in half the amount she wud have had to spend , had i gone home. . .
but i am sad you know. . . I keep praying for holidays. . And here there is 20 days and i have to stay back in this rotten place. . .With no one to talk to. . .
azhar told to go to bangalore. . But yaar, no use. . I mean . . That wud take away 2-3 days and lots of cash , without any benefit. . . I mean, my problem is that i am alone HERE. . . If i need to just relax. . I can go to cochin. . . Just do a bit of shopping, cocoa tree. . . Music world. . .And back. . . Dats enough. . . The problem is that , while studying, when i get tired. . . Get bored, . . Get tensed. . . There is no one here with me. . .Other than God i mean. . . -
newaz. . . Now perhaps , inshaAllah. . . I will go to chennai on 25th. . . Aapa bhaiya and faaris are comin over for check up. . . Baba doesnt keep well na. . . Thats why. . Now , this trip is different. . Coz it is to meet my family. . . Ok. . Not parents. . But BADI BEHEN TO MAA KE JAISI HOTI HAI. . . . .:-) lolz. . Lets see
allah hafiz

Where do i begin ?

2008-04-15T17:13:00.000+05:30

Assalam. .
Today is 15th and the final sessionals start from 22nd. . . There are 7 papers of 4 subjects totally. . . So, how exactly should i go about it? ? Additional info,,, i don know a word . . . Gotto start from the start. . . Not that i haven studied anything. . . Just that i don remember it all now. . . Some people tell that don worry. . .You will get it wen you get the question paper in your hands. . .Thats not how it happens for me. . . On the contrary , if i do remember anything . . That too vanishes from my memory. . With one look at the questions. . . Almas is unique. . You know :-) lolz. .
i shall give my intro in another post. . . Gotto go now. . . And buy chaya. . . Tea. . . Gotto have my bath. . Wash my hair . . (1 BIG pain) and again get back to my adventures in the field of medicine. . .:-) lolz. .

Mohsin sent a message "LET WORRIES WORRY THAT YOU ARE NOT WORRIED. "

cool one. . . Isnt it ?.

met Arathi chechi 2day. . She too told the same thng. . Just go on stdng. . . I told her dat Reuben Lee is my inspiration. . . Fight on till the last breath . :-) . . .Even if i flunk this time. . Well. . ,
all tell that they are tensed and that they haven studied ANYTHING . . . . It all shows when they get the marks. . .I don understand why do people lie? ? ? Stupid ones they are. . . Newaz. . .Why am i spoiling my mood coz of them ? There are lots of other ways to spoil mood !!! Lolz. . .Okie. . -
tatas
khuda hafiz